adjustingfast
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I returned home early from a deployment to take care of my husband who had admitted himself in a mental health hospital for symptoms of depression, PTSD, and depression. While in the hospital he suffered a complete amnesia to which he has literally no memories of his life outside of his tour in Iraq 10 years ago. That's right. It took ten years for him to break down and in the worst way possible.
Now three months later I am awaiting the court clerk to serve me divorce papers him and his family conspired to set me up with. In the last week I have witnessed an out of body experience where I did not recognize myself and how I was handling the stress in our life now. I went an saw a psychologist and was diagnosed with an adjustment disorder and depression with situational onset. Unfortunately, due to the high involvement of his parents and the two faced stories they are feeding me, I am now losing my husband of 5 years.
I truly feel my husband in in distress with our marriage and he has definitely changed since the breakdown. All rightfully so. But how do I cope and react maturely to his two-faced parents? How do I trust my faith and God that his memories won't come back and he feel regret later. I love my husband and I remember our strong bond and love before my deployment. I truly felt we were soul mates. This is a hard loss. I know that he could have changed enough to not ever be comfortable around me, but is this truly his choice? I can't control it either way. Is it better I get out now and cut my losses before I engulf myself in a life long battle with his parents?
Morally, my faith stands in the way and that causes stress since my husband, once a Chaplin's Assistant and aspiring Chaplin candidate is now a godless person that relies on his parents for self worth.
Now three months later I am awaiting the court clerk to serve me divorce papers him and his family conspired to set me up with. In the last week I have witnessed an out of body experience where I did not recognize myself and how I was handling the stress in our life now. I went an saw a psychologist and was diagnosed with an adjustment disorder and depression with situational onset. Unfortunately, due to the high involvement of his parents and the two faced stories they are feeding me, I am now losing my husband of 5 years.
I truly feel my husband in in distress with our marriage and he has definitely changed since the breakdown. All rightfully so. But how do I cope and react maturely to his two-faced parents? How do I trust my faith and God that his memories won't come back and he feel regret later. I love my husband and I remember our strong bond and love before my deployment. I truly felt we were soul mates. This is a hard loss. I know that he could have changed enough to not ever be comfortable around me, but is this truly his choice? I can't control it either way. Is it better I get out now and cut my losses before I engulf myself in a life long battle with his parents?
Morally, my faith stands in the way and that causes stress since my husband, once a Chaplin's Assistant and aspiring Chaplin candidate is now a godless person that relies on his parents for self worth.
