Hello.
Currently I am on leave at home from a psychiatric ward. I won't be going back which is unfortunate, and due to specific reasons. I have to handle my crisis by myself for now. That's why I am here now.
One part of my issue is the unfamiliarity I feel with life and myself right now, due to suspecting that after having things really well for some years, my detachment or something like that has been lifting and fears and traumas being set aside, some of which I have had since childhood I think. I feel like I was born yesterday in many ways, with unfamiliarity with everything being the theme. I have not been able to find much on this topic. I feel very alone, and one reason I am here is that I feel I need anyone who knows how I feel, to help with the solitude part of this seemingly rare issue.
I feel some detachment from a lot of my trauma has moved aside and now weird things I had blocked away for decades even have come to my attention. Just describing this is a challenge. Thank goodness for modern LLMs or otherwise I would not have known where to begin or have even found this forum.
I have a lot of issues, but I guess one focus is this feeling of hyper awareness and unfamiliarity. Starting from there might be a good idea, and just seeing if anyone has experienced similar things after their trauma has subsided and how they managed it, how long it took to feel familiar or oneself again, just sharing the experience.
Thank you. I really hope I can find some help here, as on the ward things have been quite challenging due to some rare physiological issues leading to treatment not functioning for me, amongst other things. I have began to feel better after getting home and getting some sleep, but my crisis remains and I would love to feel like I have a plan, some things I can do that actually help for others who know what I am going through in their own way, and some human interactions and so on. Thank you so much.
Currently I am on leave at home from a psychiatric ward. I won't be going back which is unfortunate, and due to specific reasons. I have to handle my crisis by myself for now. That's why I am here now.
One part of my issue is the unfamiliarity I feel with life and myself right now, due to suspecting that after having things really well for some years, my detachment or something like that has been lifting and fears and traumas being set aside, some of which I have had since childhood I think. I feel like I was born yesterday in many ways, with unfamiliarity with everything being the theme. I have not been able to find much on this topic. I feel very alone, and one reason I am here is that I feel I need anyone who knows how I feel, to help with the solitude part of this seemingly rare issue.
I feel some detachment from a lot of my trauma has moved aside and now weird things I had blocked away for decades even have come to my attention. Just describing this is a challenge. Thank goodness for modern LLMs or otherwise I would not have known where to begin or have even found this forum.
I have a lot of issues, but I guess one focus is this feeling of hyper awareness and unfamiliarity. Starting from there might be a good idea, and just seeing if anyone has experienced similar things after their trauma has subsided and how they managed it, how long it took to feel familiar or oneself again, just sharing the experience.
Thank you. I really hope I can find some help here, as on the ward things have been quite challenging due to some rare physiological issues leading to treatment not functioning for me, amongst other things. I have began to feel better after getting home and getting some sleep, but my crisis remains and I would love to feel like I have a plan, some things I can do that actually help for others who know what I am going through in their own way, and some human interactions and so on. Thank you so much.
