Sufferer Recent Diagnosis

[TimidZiggy]

So for like 10 years I've been seeing the same therapist and we really didn't have a clue what was wrong with me, my biggest issue has always been anxiety (as well as OCD) lately for whatever reason things have gotten awful for me. I spent about 5-6 years being relatively fine (I was on medication most of my life but that's a long story that has to do with being abused which is why I have PTSD) but then when I broke away from my family and started seeking second and third opinions I was told I didn't need such heavy medication (and also asked repeatedly why I was on such heavy things when I had no history of psychotic behavior or violence). After going off the medication I had a bit of a hard time but recovered with the help of my therapist.

Now it's about 6 years later and I had an intense period of stress where my brain just collapsed and I can't seem to pull myself out of whatever hole I got into. The initial cause of my PTSD is my incredibly abusive parents but I never thought I could possibly have PTSD until recently when a few people mentioned it to me. I have two friends who have it and my social worker asked me if I had it as well (Upon first meeting her). Seeing as how I had three people who knew about PTSD ask me if I had it too (out of the blue) I figured there might be something to this (especially considering both me and my therapist are struggling to figure out what's wrong with me and have been for years). When I brought it up with her she said she could definitely see that (but she won't officially diagnose because she's an LISW and doesn't want to make a diagnosis without a psychiatrist) but she IS urging me to seek specific therapy to specifically treat PTSD which pretty much means she thinks I have it (and she hasn't urged any specific type of therapy ever before just to continue to see to 'figure it out")

From what I've read, my therapist's reaction, and my friends with PTSD all of it seems to fit. Yet I have so many questions and I'm relieved yet terrified. Because of my insurance situation getting help is going to be VERY SLOW and I am terrified I can't just WAIT AROUND to get help. Every day it seems things get more and more stressful. The doctors at this point also think I now have fibromyalgia (Sp?) which they thought far before my PTSD diagnosis I need to get checked for that too (and apparently those two things are linked strongly). The thing is my doctors/insurance is crap because I'm poor (on benefits) and it's just taking too long. As sure as I (and other people are) that this is my diagnosis, how do you convince yourself to WAIT around for help without going nuts?

 

[intothelight]

@TimidZiggy Welcome to the forum!

how do you convince yourself to WAIT around for help without going nuts?

I guess my advise would be there is no need to wait, and start finding ways to help yourself. There is so much information on this forum and a lot of it doesn't require a mental health professional to implement. I hope you find it helpful.

 

[TimidZiggy]

Well I'm on a list to get counseling, I see a therapist once a week, they started me on medications that seem to have made me 10 times worse but to be fair I've only been on them a week. So it seems things have just gotten a lot worse. I do "help myself" I read about things to do, ways to improve but in the end it just seems like I need more of an outside force to help push me.