Remorse

[chant2012]

Remorse

I loved you so much; we were all hurt so bad.

If you're reading this you might think I'm mad.

You hurt me, I hurt you, mean and harsh words were never few;

Everything was always so misconstrued.

As I'm lying here writing and thinking about what I saw,

Also I am thinking that it was partially my fault.

And I'm sorry for that; really I am.

Sometimes this feels like an awful scam.

I don't know, maybe it was all me.

Maybe I caused all of this pain and tension that won't cease.

It's just it was always so f*cked up, every minute of every day.

It was such a bad feeling that never has gone away.

You didn't know how to show it; how to make it work.

And I am admitting that I was a jerk.

Sometimes this makes me crazy; it makes me want to scream!

So I am going to try and let go and tell you what I mean.

Right now I am going to tell you what I am feeling.

It's hard because I know that what I am about to do you probably won't.

I'm going to make amends here and now.

It's no joke.

Again I'll say it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I love and forgive you; I really do.

 

[chant2012]

I wrote this about how I feel remorse regarding the circumstances between my parents and I.