M: Not really :eek: I see his point though
- I can really relate to this: I'm capable of picturing them actually laughing and talking about me behind my back.. :alien: (And the pictures my mind can make up are really vivid too! :D )
This is not a dialog really, but anyhow:
My T. talked to me about heavy stuff, like limits in a therapy-session for one thing. And about the possibility to be attracted and what the limits were.. I almost freaked out, and just numbed out, and went blank. Later he was pushing my limits by talking about that you sometimes can have a need to have physical contact and get hugged by someone(else than your kids) when you are in the kind of state I was after his first "pushing my limits". I really didn't understand why he was talking like that, since he know I can't trust my judgment enough to be able to let anyone that close, or cope with having a female friend any closer than giving her a short hug. And his words made me panic, and he saw it and tried to help me express what I was feeling.. That didn't work, since I couldn't speak and was just shaking and fighting the impulses to run out of the room.
Then he said we could take a walk around the house if I wanted too... - I won't tell you what kind of pictures my mind was able to produce after him saying that(since they are just to dirty). :D :D :D
When I, a few weeks later, told him what kind of pictures those words about "taking a walk around the house" gave me
the poor thing didn't laughed at all, only looked at me with a very strange look in his face(but me and my friend had laughed so hard about it outside therapy we cried and that laugh was what enabled me to be able to go back, even though his words about walking around the house freaked me out.. :) )..