Riding The Struggle Bus Again

[Ktdreier]

I have been on every anxiety med out there. Guess what my anxiety is getting the best of me again. I just called to up my med again. from 20mg to 40mg and I am getting the questioning from my psychiatrist. I don't know why which aggravates me. I only call when I have issues. I told the nurse I was having trouble sleeping and she asked me if there was anything else going on. So I told her my mom had a heart attack and my grandma broke her hip. She goes oh those sound stressful. Well yeah! Then she told me she would call me back and see what the doc wanted to do. I am one of those people that freeze on the phone so managing to get that out of my mouth was hard. I am just aggravated that they don't seem to care. Now my anxiety is going crazy because I just want an answer!

 

[Ktdreier]

Got an answer going in tomorrow to discuss medication. I know what the psychiatrist is going to say to me. That I have tried every anxiety med under the sun and she doesn't know what else to do. Either do I anymore. I just feel so defeated.

 

[Silver.]

Do you have a therapist? A therapist can teach you mindfulness and coping techniques to help you deal with the anxiety.
You can get to a point in life where you won't have to be on a benzodiazepine to handle the anxiety. I know it's hard to believe right now, but you are doing a great thing by reaching out for help.
Try and find some things to distract yourself, do things that I call arting. Drawing, coloring, crafting and such. Read, clean the house, go for a walk etc
Be well

 

[Ktdreier]

So I went yesterday. She upd my med and was oddly empathetic and told me to call if I need anything. So I guess I am going through a lot of stress and my anxiety level is just right now. I've been also seeing a therapist for two years and she told me also to call if I needed anything. I just don't want to deal with all this anxiety right now. So instead I push people away. I do this often. I see my therapist in another two weeks. Although right now I'm not looking forward to it. I know I need to go.