Ruined A Good Thing

[Casey_03]

Finally met a great guy who treated me really well and could've offered me everything I want. And there was potential for a real relationship with a future. But I ruined it. Got very very drunk and was downright nasty to him, even hit him. I am so deeply ashamed and I hate myself for this. I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself. Clearly I know I have to quit drinking. But now I've lost someone I was quickly falling in love with. Worse yet, I've hurt him.

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

Your behavior may not be totally because of the alcohol. Many times, people with a mental illness, particularly abuse sufferers, will self sabotage relationships. They feel that they do not deserve to be happy, and will abuse themselves, long after the abuser is gone. I have done that in the past. It's almost an automatic, subconscious thing. The best thing you can do right now is to let things cool off for a few days, then open a dialogue with that person, lay everything on the table, and explain what made you do what you did. Many times, it can be fixed.