Saying Goodbye To Childhood Home Tomorrow

[Casper1018]

My mom is selling her home of 56 years; the home I was molested and physically abused in by my live-in grandpa as well as a minister. The home is empty and my mom lives with my sister. I was talking about this house to my T yesterday and got really tearful, during session and after, which surprised me. I've decided to go there tomorrow after Art Therapy Group and say "goodbye" and hopefully leave those demons behind - for good. I am thinking about writing a letter; to the house, my abusers, my memories . while I am there. Has anyone ever done anything like that before and did it help? Thanks!

 

[KwanYingirl]

My friend asked me if I wanted him to dig up my grandfathers grave and shot him in the head. I said do it and shoot whatever is left of his penis. That's as far as I've gotten. I think you're awesome to write a letter and it will be empowering for you.

 

[Chava]

I don't know. I remember being in my childhood home for the last time before it was being sold and just had a very blah feeling of, "f*ck it." I really didn't care. My good memories were in other places and those places were harder to leave (those other places were "home" to me).

If you think writing a letter would be helpful for you, I say go for it.

 

[Ocean5]

If you can write it, then burn in front lawn. That way it's gone forever. I learned recently letters I wrote to abuser where never even opened. They are still sealed in storage.

 

[Casper1018]

@Ocean5. I wrote a VERY long letter to the minister who abused me. I asked for his e-mail address and surprisingly, he sent it almost immediately. He wrote back simply saying, "It's forever before me. Please forgive me." No closure, really, but it felt good to get it out.

@Chava, the trip to the house was anticlimactic. My sis ended up being there so I wasn't able to do any of the things I had planned. I did take some pics I plan on sharing with my T, but I kind of doubt I'll go back and try for the healing I had hoped.