I really appreciate all of the thoughtful replies. I am now going through a nasty slow and painful break up. Does anyone have any suggestions on resources to find good therapist, (This websites therapy section had no one near me). I live in 91360, CA.
An issue I have with therapy is 1. I don't like to talk about my problems, 2. I don't like new people, 3. I strongly dislike hearing the words "PTSD" "illness" "medication" "rape" "abuse" and "moles****". They make me squirm and want to run.
Its a defeating cycle of things getting worse> not going to therapy > things getting worse > and the thought of therapy gets more repulsive.
All the kindness is so much appreciated, having all of you is such a weight of my shoulders.
-Emm