Scared

[Joan]

I had a scary experience today. I had to go to the dr. this am. I did ok as I was able to stand up for myself and verbalize what was ok to do and what was too triggering. The problem came when I was left in this tiny room to wait for the lab tech. I felt trapped and threatened. I was getting ready to bolt when the tech came to take my blood. I tolerated that. I do not remember leaving the doctor office, driving home or coming into my apartment. The next thing I was aware of was coming out of a flashback laying on my living room floor. That really scares me to lose that block of time, especially when it involves driving.

 

[NormativeTruth]

I fully understand. But if it's any comfort, I recently realised I am actually a much safer, less reckless driver while dissociated.

 

[twopenny]

If I'm getting the hang of the dissociation thing (and I'm only just learning about it and realising that I do it sometimes, and am far, far, far from expert), the idea behind it is that your brain splits you off in order to protect you, so in theory you should be safer when dissociated than when not.

I know exactly how scary it is though.