Screaming Nightmare.

[Lauren214]

I apologize for the long post.

This morning before waking up I had a nightmare, again about my attacker. This one my mother and brother were in it and a woman I feel I should know already just cant put my finger on it. It took place at a church that during the day sold fresh produce. I was in there buying eggs when I saw some friends. I didn't realize my attacker was in the dream until halfway through when he came out in the early evening because of an argument among me and my friends.

When I realized it I created a plan with my brother to escape the locked church, after escaping I felt bad and went back inside to help my friends. It was weird though when I went back in everyone but the woman I should know was gone. Even my attacker was hiding.

I immediately ran into the church trying to find them when I stumbled across the woman talking with my attacker I immediately picked up something blunt thinking it would help me if this lady in a wheelchair tried to attack me. As my attacker and the woman come through the corner I see my mother outside and whisper to her where I am.

A few seconds after that I was screaming multiple times because the woman would touch a hand to me. She freaked me out. Not long after I woke up.

I have not had a dream like this where I scream in my sleep in a year and a half. At this point I much more feel like I'm getting worse and not better.

 

[franciemarnie]

Even though it was a horrifying nightmare, I tend to see it as a good sign when I deal with trauma in a dream. It's being processed. Plus look how positive it was that you escaped! And how kind you were to return and help others, but you were smart and found something to use as a weapon if needed.

I wonder if the person in the wheelchair is a part of yourself still trapped in trauma, unable to run. You didn't know if she would attack you - like when PTSD symptoms feel like an assault, or maybe powerful emotions can feel like an assault.

I don't like stuff buried inside me. I want my dreams to help me, but they can be terrifying and drain us for sure.

 

[Flyaway]

Hmmm I don't know much about dream interpretation... But I believe eggs can either signify fragility, or it could be new life. Which might make a bit more sense - maybe the message is you're trying to claim a new life (by buying eggs) and your afraid your attacker isn't done with you yet and will strike again. Church is suppose to be a safe haven - sounds like your afraid that the attacker is able to intrude on your safety.

Have you had any triggers lately? Nightmares are a way for your mind to let your conscious mind know about unresolved issues.

Does any of this resonate?

 

[Lauren214]

Sounds interesting Flyaway I know I've been really paranoid lately and notice anyone who doesn't seem right. Like at the grocery store the other day a gentleman followed us into the store acted like he was using the ATM but he never bought anything he just stood there and then left after we did. I think the church was there in the dream because the night I left I took shelter in the shadows of a closed church. My attacker knows many people in my town and can even look up my house and my street by Goggling my full name which he already knew. He was a stalker and I never realized it until later on. Another night I was paranoid of the guy driving behind me because he looked minor similar to my attacker.

 

[Flyaway]

Have you thought about moving Leah? I'm planning on moving soon to somewhere where people can't identify me as being related to my family (creeps) ...it's been triggering me so badly for so long! We deserve to feel safe!