Sometimes, when I am faced with a stressful event and if it at all reminds me of how I felt during a period of trauma, I feel a surge of pain fill me and it is so much, that I can not speak any words.
Once, that happened during my quarterly review at work.
It was not the bast timing, but thankfully, my boss tried to work with me. At one point I became very still and lost my feeling as the stress hit me, and as I felt pain fill my heart, my head and arms fell limp on her desk. I 'came to' soon after, having no recollection of how I got to that strange posture. After seeing her sad expression, I was eventually able to know what happened. There have been several times at work, when suddenly I am taken cpative my a memory which pulls me in and takes over my emotions. All of a sudden, I am
bracing myself and feeling pain (like intense sadness)filling me, and someone will ask me if I'm alright. At first, it's as if I cannot hear them or comprehend. I only see their mouths moving. Then I hear their words, but I cannot speak. It takes a few minutes before I can speak, so I just force myself to nod my head.