Sex Is Kind Of Gross.

[Loner]

Hmmm thats an interesting perspective Philippa, that sex is gross but I guess at times we just don't care. Perhaps it is at least a little bit that way for everyone.

Right kind of me, I'm not so much talking about new person sex as being an ego or self esteem booster, because I think you're right, that is fleeting and hollow, but just that the excitement and newness of it might distract me from reservations I still have.

We shall see I suppose. As of yet there arent any women knocking on my door trying to get me to sleep with them hahahaha.

 

[Loner]

Well I spent last night with the same girl I have been hanging out with, and while I wasn't feeling intensely passionate, we did have sex, and it was very nice. The sexual energy and lust was definitely secondary to the feeling of closeness with her, but that felt very nice, and I did not feel grossed out or uncomfortable at all.

I haven't been looking at porn since I started this thread, and I think it has been good for me. I am happy and pleasantly surprised though, because many people on the porn addiction website aj1 linked to talked about it taking 3months or so to feel normal with women again, but I guess perhaps since I wasn't really addicted to porn, and just resorted to it due to being scared of women, the effects of that have been much faster, which makes me glad.

I want to thank everyone that posted in this thread for the advise and support. I am feeling very at peace with things now and happy about where I am at with everything. You are all awesome!