"Some of us fall by the wayside, and some of us soar to the clouds. And some of us sail through our troubles, and some have to live with the scars."
"Circle of Life". This quote just reminds me that even though I fall by the wayside, and I have to live with the scars of all I've done wrong and being done wrong to, if I hadn't been able to handle it, it wouldn't have happened to me. And so, I'm glad that it happened to me, and not to someone else- because if someone else had to go through my trauma instead, they might not have been able to handle it. I know that I can be strong, and that it happened for a reason. Whether I justify the abuse, or I argue it in my head, I survived it, and having to live it over again through my "body memories" (I use this term not as a form of sexual abuse, but as a form of physical abuse) and my flashbacks, makes me sad, but it makes me realize that it was hard, and that this isn't something that just happens as a right of passage to everybody. People are never given more than they can handle; If I couldn't handle it, this wouldn't have happened to me.
So although I'm not over it yet, it's just more important that I've remembered it. I can have strong views myself on children who are abused, and I can say "I survived; but it will always affect you." rather than just "I survived, and my life is perfect now." It's okay to remember, it is a part of who you are, and although we're struggling, it's a struggle that we can fight, and hopefully win.
