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I think you're right Grief. & To be frank I know we could have messed around even tho he's gay. People would joke about getting him drunk because that would be the only way & it p*ssed me off. I love the guy, if someone did that to him I'd lose my sh*t.
The sad truth is I coulda without him being drunk cuz I think he really just wants to feel loved. & Unfortunately, even tho I've said the two aren't inclusive to each other, I think he deeply connects them in very negative ways. It took me awhile but the incident I brought up, what I said was lewd but the underlying focus was that he was elevated beyond other men in my life. He actually meant something. But it was only when I merged sexual wording with fondness it happened. It's only a guess tho.
He won't even speak to me now, because him & his bf came into work one night & a co-worker told me he seen the guy put him up against the wall by his throat. & Someone mentioned flying out to see him & I asked them to just keep an eye out basically cuz of it. The building also has cameras & there had been plenty of red flags before then. I've asked him to talk to me about it because the person went and told him I said it. But he won't. We didn't fall out cuz I couldn't handle loving him and him being gay. That's not how love works lol. We fell out because of that.
If I could rip him up from the hell I know he's been in I would, but I can't. I use to get calls on a weekly basis from said co-worker to come in because M was having a breakdown. & I would. He'd always have himself composed by then but I could still see it in his eyes and he wouldn't deny it. I'd just help close so he could go home sooner and most likely cry to himself. Sh*t s*cks.
The sad truth is I coulda without him being drunk cuz I think he really just wants to feel loved. & Unfortunately, even tho I've said the two aren't inclusive to each other, I think he deeply connects them in very negative ways. It took me awhile but the incident I brought up, what I said was lewd but the underlying focus was that he was elevated beyond other men in my life. He actually meant something. But it was only when I merged sexual wording with fondness it happened. It's only a guess tho.
He won't even speak to me now, because him & his bf came into work one night & a co-worker told me he seen the guy put him up against the wall by his throat. & Someone mentioned flying out to see him & I asked them to just keep an eye out basically cuz of it. The building also has cameras & there had been plenty of red flags before then. I've asked him to talk to me about it because the person went and told him I said it. But he won't. We didn't fall out cuz I couldn't handle loving him and him being gay. That's not how love works lol. We fell out because of that.
If I could rip him up from the hell I know he's been in I would, but I can't. I use to get calls on a weekly basis from said co-worker to come in because M was having a breakdown. & I would. He'd always have himself composed by then but I could still see it in his eyes and he wouldn't deny it. I'd just help close so he could go home sooner and most likely cry to himself. Sh*t s*cks.