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So Tired

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Ghostybear73

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I am so tired, its hard to hold on. Last nigh in the couple hours I slept, I dreamed of being chased down again, only to be caught, again. For the first time my dog showed up and they killed her. Then another person tried and they killed him. I don't understand why they were blessed with a quick death, while I spent hours on end being tortured (jeesh, I hate that word).

I take clonodine, similar to prazosin but with less sleepwalking, and it has lessened the intensity, but sometimes, nothing works. I also take ativan, seroquel, lamictal, effexor and sinequin. To my utter dismay I adjust to meds quick and its a never ending battle. I wonder if being shot up with drugs, to be more submissive as a child, has anything to do with this.

Jeez, I feel like crying, but that's not on my emotions I know how to do list. In fact the only thing on that list is anger.....and you know what, f*ck crying, now I'm getting f*cking pissed.
 
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So sorry to hear it Ghostybear and I totally relate. You've got a lot on your plate right now and sleep deprivation makes everything so much worse.

Maybe Santa will bring you some warm milk and cookies tonight to help you sleep. :hug:
 
Thank you littlelostchild for making me smile. I'm thinking santa might bring me some homemade caramel popcorn balls too!!
 
Hey,

I hope you feel better! I've been battling with a comparable situation the last few days, these horrible images keep popping up in my head, images of somebody maliciously trying to abuse me. It's a pain, it's so hard to shake it off it's almost like a daytime nightmare. So I scream at the images until I'm out of voice to scream with, a bunch of hours a day (fun for my neighbors).

Screaming helps, I know in your dreams you can't just scream them off, that really sucks >:-(
Next time I have a screaming round, I'll direct them at your nighmeres too!
 
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