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Something I Wrote A While Ago....

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jd9900

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And wanted to share with you all. I hope you all have a wonderful day.

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Often I write in third person, but tonight, I feel like writing in a first person narrative.

“Life sucks.”

I can't tell you how many times I have stated those words, or how many more times I have heard those words. But, when I think about it, I can not think of anything less true.

Am I going to tell you that sometimes life does not suck? Hell no. Sometimes, indeed, it does. But I ask this - at the moment, the second, you utter those words, allow you to give yourself pause. Ponder, if you will, why you feel this way.

Often I find when I state those words, it is because I have chosen to endure a shitty situation far longer than I should have, and have turned myself into a victim instead of a survivor. My father, before his passing, gave me some words of advice I shall never forget.

“Sometimes,” Dad said, “Sometimes you are the bug, and sometimes you are the windshield.

“The windshield does not have to win all the time, though.

“It is often the strongest bug that hits the windshield, and before the wipers come on, flies away to fight another day.”

I have tried to take those words to heart, but it has been hard. Life, it seems, has a certain irony about it. It seems like the stronger I become, the harder I fly into the windshield, and the quicker the wipers come on.

Still, though, I cannot help but think – if I am here, now, typing this - am I not, thus far, a very strong person in front of an exceptional opponent? On this very day, as I have every day before, I have found hard times and a way to stand back up. Not just this day, but this very minute, this very second! Have I not been able to eliminate the evils that humanity and nature often bring upon me? So far, I have.

On this very day, as I have every day before, Not just this day, but this very minute, this very second - I have found a way.

This thought has always been inspirational to me, through very hard times. And today, once more, I find those words much the spiritual guides I needed to walk through the valley of the shadow of death once more.

And on this very day, as I have every day before, this very minute, this very second – I do not intend to stop.

I welcome life's next challenges. They have only made me a better, stronger person, and I have no reason to suspect that will change. Human beings are fallible, however the human spirit knows nothing but how to thrive.

Embrace that spirit, I believe it will serve you well.
 
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That is very fair. To that, I would like to reference one of my favorite passages.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." --Corinthians

We are all fighters here; all of us survivors. And I believe we see things much in that light - we see that which many do not. It's that spirit that gets us out of bed in the morning.
 
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I welcome life's next challenges. They have only made me a better, stronger person, and I have no reason to suspect that will change. Human beings are fallible, however the human spirit knows nothing but how to thrive. Embrace that spirit, I believe it will serve you well.


So aptly put. I started my journey post diagnosis facing the fact that I had truly lost everything. Wife of 18 years, six children. House worth £250.000, job earning me £36.000 PA, wifes job potentially earning £35.00 PA. Life was FANTASTIC and nothing was missing.

Except there was something missing. My own feeling of self worth. Well I have lost all of that now and only have my Dole money to survive on. I give my wife and kids nearly all of my benefits as I fathered them and "I AM" responsible for them. The money I give may be sporadic and differing but what I can I DO give.

I welcome each new day with it's unique challenges with an open mind and a happy heart. What I suffered in earlier years I will not let get me down. I stand strong in the knowledge that..... "I"..... "SURVIVED" those years of physical and mental torment and am still here to tell my story.

Life can drag you down to the point of desperation and isolation, only if we let it!

My story may well be different to many others still struggling with this injury, I say Injury as many people will see PTSD as something they can't see therefore they don't understand the physical side of a psychological disorder that can endanger the sufferer.

MASSIVE HUGS TO ALL!!!


XXX Laurie71
 
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