Sometimes it's just hard to show up...

[mrsmegan]

I am so busy, I love my job, but I have so many days where I feel like I have to convince myself over and over to come.....

 

[The Albatross]

What feelings and thoughts do you have about "hard" or "things/life/situations/people are hard"?

 

[mrsmegan]

Life is hard. I feel emotionally overwhelmed, so putting on my "work face" is challenging. I also have been really struggling with rumination - so I don't feel like my work has been productive.

 

[The Albatross]

Okay good answer. You identified three things... underneath hard. What tools do you have to use on those three?

 

[mrsmegan]

Good questions....

It is helpful to get support - which I am doing now.

In terms of my work face - I am not sure if I just need to employ that whole "fake it til you make it" rountine and power through? Although I find that exhausting in itself.

Rumination is hard - but I think I need to just give myself opportunities to later. For example, I will focus on this task for the next hour. When that is done, I can think about XYZ for 5 minutes....

 

[The Albatross]

In terms of meaningfulness... maybe consider putting some feelers out?

 

[mrsmegan]

What do you mean? Sorry....I am feeling a bit dumb this morning....

 

[The Albatross]

Maybe I misunderstood when you said work wasn't productive? perhaps you mean your work quality.. not what your actually doing as a job?

 

[mrsmegan]

Oh! Now I got it - sorry!

Yes, I mean my work quality. I am a bit of a perfectionist, but there are times that I spend literally hours ruminating on something, which leads me spend time searching online for answers or to just validate my pain/situation.

 

[The Albatross]

Well instead of perfectionism... maybe some, "It is the best I can do at this time and that's okay" is in order?

 

[mrsmegan]

yes, that is probably a good idea...

 

[The Albatross]

Have a better day than you anticipate Mrs. Megan... it could happen. Honest. Look for small blessings and things that go right/well or are good today k?