Sorry If I Ask Too Many Questions....

[Zipperhead]

Dude, calm down and think about this for a minute. It is your anger your letting rule your life. Suck back and reload. Appologise NOW. And get the help you need. Anger is not the way to live the rest of your life.

 

[K-9 Al]

Bro, please take it from me. Go get help NOW. Not for your fiance, get help for YOU. You need to want to get help for yourself and no body else. If you do it for anyone but yourself then you wotn be able to overcome this because when that person leaves, you will be back to square one. If you dont stop she WILL leave you. I almost lost my two boys, my wife, my home, everything. I ended up IN JAIL over my anger. Please go get help. Dont wait another day.....
There is NOTHING wrong with goign ot get help. I was so stubborn about getting help. DIdnt want to talk to someone that "i didnt know" or who "didnt know shit about me" about my problems. Seriously, it was the best thing I did.

I still have issues but i am learning day-by-day to not flip the f*ck out, to not go off on my wife or throw shit. It takes time but you have to go get help.

 

[Jimmy1]

Until you can get yourself on a course and learn all about this 'Beast', its usually unmanageable. Some people get by.
Anger, rage, whatever you want to call it will eat you up. You need to get yourself to a therapist or on to a PTSD course no matter whether it is a live in or live out course. Its either that or say good bye to all those around you. Thats what happened to me. Its too late once you have told everyone to f*ck off. They don't have to be reasonable. They don't have to come back in to your life.

PTSD has been around for hundreds of years however; recently with the 'War on Terror', and thousands of our brothers returning mental wrecks, they have made inroads into treatment. They generally do have an idea what they are talking about now whether they have served or not. Everybody's trauma is different with PTSD whether it be from combat, sexual abuse, auto wreck or natural disaster; however the symptoms are generally the same. Ours as veterans are just amplified due to our military training and duration exposed to the traumas.

Everyone on this forum is here for each other. Although some of the things that are mentioned helps, there is no substitute for a qualified practitioner and the right medication to start with.

Just think of someone diagnosed with diabetes. Before they are diagnosed their lives can be in turmoil; however, once it is diagnosed and they know what they are dealing with, and a medical practitioner gives them the low down on what they can eat etc, they can lead a semi normal life. They may not be able to eat everything a normal person does, and they may have to check their blood regularly, and they may even have a relapse after forgetting about their sugar levels, but apart from that, they are fine.

 

[Ned]

Look at it this way. You can:
1. Go through the unknown steps of professional guidance and addressing the problem, which seems like a huge watershed I know but with hindsight I'd say it's like starting Basic Training again. WTF, you've done it once...
2. Keep sticking elastoplast on it and end up in the shit.
Initially the priority is grounding the anger, but you can learn to generate less of it.
But like any tricky skill, you need the right person passing it on to you.

 

[watchdog]

I want to thank everyone for their input, I do see a counsleoor, however she was on vacation for the last few weeks, I get to see her tommorow, Im on a shit load of meds etc... was at Bellewood Health Centre for 2 months of intense PTSD therapy after I assualted a couple of police. Things were doing good, I just find that the added stress of being in a new relationship just pushes sometimes, she is 100% supportive, she actually has a meeting tonight. She always says that she understands its not me when Im like that, and loves the good times when we have them......they are amazing when Im calmed down, however, I feel dead inside, I know I love her, she knows I love her and feels that "feeling" that I love her, it just gets frustrating and lonely when Im unable to feel that "fuzzy" feeling inside, when I know she loves me......its just hard, once in a blue moon, I do feel that "fuzzy" feeling, like the other night, we layed in bed for a couple hours, just holding each other and stairing into each others eyes (as gay as that sounds) but I was actually in the "moment" and did not want it to end. These feelings for me are just so far and few between. I still show her love, hold her, tell her how much I love her, rub her back etc... she loves it and feels the love from me.....but I dont get the "fuzzy" feeling.....just feels as though Im alone...

 

[Zipperhead]

A better day today. Therapist tommorow. Don't duck tommorow. Tell her what happened. Don't let the monster control you anymore. I don't even start treatments till next week. But she's getting everything when I get into that office. Take it all away. I don't want the anger or the hate any more.

 

[watchdog]

A better day today. Therapist tommorow. Don't duck tommorow. Tell her what happened. Don't let the monster control you anymore. I don't even start treatments till next week. But she's getting everything when I get into that office. Take it all away. I don't want the anger or the hate any more.

Yes, it was a better couple days......my fiance just found out that her mothers cancer has returned, not sure ifs it the PTSD, but Im so acceptable to other peoples feelings, and the akwardness is causing stres......i guess this makes sence.