LifeOnARollerCoaster
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I found a therapist who 'gets' me and the bigger picture of my issues this week and am starting with EMDR on Thursday. Am both excited and nervous about it.
The excitement comes from the fact that I've hit a point in this PTSD-cycle that I'm more frustrated than devastated. It has taken almost two years but I am officially sick of checking-out (dissociating). When it starts, it takes me weeks to get back to the present and stop isolating and avoiding everything. I'll have a few good weeks and then off I go again.
The nervous stems from the fact that I am terrified nothing will ever help and I'm going to be stuck on "totally dysfunctional" for the rest of my life.
Because complicated expat issues are a part of my deal, I found someone from the Netherlands based in Slovenia who works with a lot of expats and specializes in trauma. I was dubious about whether or not online counseling would work but it turns out to be great for me. Rather than watching a finger go back and forth, I'm going to be watching a box on a screen.
I don't expect to be cured on Thursday but am praying that I at least start making a dent in this wall that has become my life.
Anybody out there who has had success with EMDR feel like sharing their experiences? I want to go into it with realistic expectations.
The excitement comes from the fact that I've hit a point in this PTSD-cycle that I'm more frustrated than devastated. It has taken almost two years but I am officially sick of checking-out (dissociating). When it starts, it takes me weeks to get back to the present and stop isolating and avoiding everything. I'll have a few good weeks and then off I go again.
The nervous stems from the fact that I am terrified nothing will ever help and I'm going to be stuck on "totally dysfunctional" for the rest of my life.
Because complicated expat issues are a part of my deal, I found someone from the Netherlands based in Slovenia who works with a lot of expats and specializes in trauma. I was dubious about whether or not online counseling would work but it turns out to be great for me. Rather than watching a finger go back and forth, I'm going to be watching a box on a screen.
I don't expect to be cured on Thursday but am praying that I at least start making a dent in this wall that has become my life.
Anybody out there who has had success with EMDR feel like sharing their experiences? I want to go into it with realistic expectations.
