General Still Living A Rollercoaster Life Of Downs And Even Lower Downs.

[SeekingSerenity]

Oh Sunshine, the rollercoaster will go up again, mine is also so low right now, can it get any lower? But I am telling myself that it will go up again, and I live for the day that it stays up... it will, eventually.

 

[wife of]

Had something very similar to that here on the first.

Knew he was safe with me and knew my name but could not remember how we are connected.

Broke my heart to have to explain we are twenty years married...

 

[amethist]

I have had that too sunshine.

Hubby knew my voice and knew he would be safe listening to it as I brought him back from a shut down, but did not have a clue who I was, just that my voice was a safe one to listen to.

 

[Sunshine71]

Thanks ladies - I am thankful for your replies and sad of course too that you have had this.

Hubby said that he just doesnt want to struggle through another day - he is wiped out with these lows..... I am scared....

With thanks for being there

Sunshine

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Stay strong and positive Sunshine, he needs that.

 

[Eleanor]

((((((Sunshine)))))))

 

[Sunshine71]

Stay strong and positive Sunshine, he needs that.

Thanks Seeking Serenity :O)

I do try my best - of course like we all do on this amazing forum :O)

I am naturally a bubbly person - do TV and radio presenting a little and people say that they enjoy being around with me.However I feel that hubby wants to knock this out of me - he does things to bring me down.

OK....

Silly things I know that sound so stupid like:

• really sniffing up in stead of blowing his nose, opens draws to get something and leaving them left open, wearing his huge boots all around the house and on the bedroom carpet, sometimes not cleaning his teeth.

• Leaving his paperwork and clothes all over the place - silly things that he never used to do.

• I detest smoking - he started to smoke a little (never in front of me and says that he stopped several years ago again).

• We are vegan (VERY) important to me and he is saying that after 10 years he is now bored and wants to eat cheese again.

I said to him last night that I hope I wake up (In time to get sorted for school for our little boy) - we had a late night seeing a special consultant for his injury after the car accident and he said a few minutes later "Thats sums it up - I dont care if I wake up"
then said "Goodnight" and turned his back on me. And so it goes on.......

I have tried to say a few things light hearted but really all of these things add up so more stress.....

Sorry to go on - and thanks for being there

Sunshine xxxxxxxxx

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[sisu]

First off (((((Sunshine71))))) Ugh! So sorry you are going through this with your "man child"... :confused:

It sounds to me as if he is acting childish to get a reaction from you ~ sometimes when people feel miserable they want other people around them to feel miserable too. You know the old saying "misery loves company" and I really think it's true. (not that this is any good excuse for his behavior!)

I've really got no good advice to add here....but just wanted you to know I am reading and I am here. Take care of yourself!

~Sisu

 

[ISupportHer]

I think it is very hard to stay positive sometimes. I feel I kind of know what you mean Sunshine.

The first TH I went to myself several years ago spoke of "modeling" behavior. Setting an example really. It can be with cheerfulness, trying to open lines of communication, anything really. The problem is, for me anyway, going into it with the knowledge that my expectations may not be met. And not, well trying not, to let it get to me. If I act like things are happy and cheery on the outside, but am devastated on the inside, the conflict WILL come out somehow.

We all have a right to feel what we feel. It's just hard to work it all out sometimes. Hence the importance of self reflection and awareness. The "take care of yourself" that everyone says, is hard for anyone at times. Even Supporters.

Hope things improve.

ISH