Structural Dissociation?

[shell]

I have a part that is just like my abuser my mother, although I wouldn't say she thinks she is her, she just mimics her. The part has it's role down pat, even telling me I need to to die, or I need to be invisible because I can't do anything right, I am a mistake, therefore I wish I was dead. Triggered by shame, meant to keep me safe from physical abuse as a child.

These days being in self allows me to settle this part giving her the kindness and compassion to not spiral into a frenzy of nasty self abuse.

 

[ms spock]

The splits in me are almost healing. Much more aware. Don't know how to do the next bit, but I always work it through. The last key was challenging a certain set of situations. I can now manage three things in a day, which, previously, each would have taken me a whole day to manage, and on top of that there would be weeks of recovery time.

Now I can do three things one day, then three things the next day, and then three things the following day. Three days per week at a very high level. I am much improved.

 

[ILoveLife]

I don't know if this pdf has been posted here already, haven't had the chance to read the entire thread. I do IFS, so it's a bit different, but I try to take into account the ideas behind the Structural Dissociation model too.

http://www.janinafisher.com/pdfs/structural-dissociation.pdf

 

[ms spock]

I don't know if I can do anything about the splits, one part is continuously apologising to the other part.

 

[EveHarrington]

This is a LOT to wrap my head around.

I have "me"

And "fear"

And "anger"

Oh and of course, little E.

I'm overwhelmed.

 

[Hope4Now]

@EveHarrington it is an overwhelming thread. Lots of theoretical information, but helpful stuff I think. It took me a long time to wrap my head around this stuff.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Yesterday I had a shit thing caused by dissociation. I got the same hurting information three times, and cried three times, but every time it was new information

 

[digger]

Re-opened

 

[ms spock]

I am really struggling with this again.

 

[Skywatcher]

I have finally figured out that this seems to be what I have going on inside of me. I have asked my therapist random questions over the last couple of years wondering why it seems like I have parts, but I don’t lose time or turn into them. I just know they are inside of my head and very much a part of my processing and sometimes a bit of a problem.

 

[ms spock]

This stuff is really hard to work out. @Skywatcher!

 

[shimmerz]

but I don’t lose time or turn into them.

I don't lose time either Skywatcher. I am intrigued what you mean when you say 'I don't turn into them'. What is it that makes you feel you have parts? No pressure to respond, just curious.