Struggling At Work

[Brokensoul88]

I went back to work on reduced hours on 13th August and gradually built up the hours. A month ago I tried to go back properly and it didn't work, my Dr put me back on reduced hours. Going back has been so hard, there has been and continues to be so much change. We have moved offices, had our team split up, people have left and when I went back to work I had a new line manager. I have tried to settle, and I've tried so hard to just get back to normal and knuckle down. I can't get used to my new LM she is one of those people who says what she thinks, she's very direct and though she tries to be supportive at times I feel like I'm just another problem in her job. I miss what my team looked like at the start of the year and my old boss. It feels like I have to be so careful what I do or say because I'm being pulled up on things that people are just misunderstanding. Nobody at work understands how I feel and knows the struggle I am fighting through and I feel like people are forgetting I'm ill and are moving on whilst im being left behind. Though only two people know I was raped (my LM and her boss) only her boss knows the extent. She has been so wonderful but she has taken a step back because she doesn't want to step on my new LMs toes. I miss her daily support. I used to LOVE my job & my team, now I find myself with few of the original amazing people left and have started looking for a new job. A year ago I wanted to stay where I am, and I realise now how uniquely lucky I was to have had such an incredible team around me but I can never go back. I don't know what to do

 

[GWhizz]

I'm in the same situation. I went back in June and have a new manager who is abrasive and doesn't offer any support other than 'would you not consider going part time?' - 'no, what would be the point working part time and paying it all on childcare!' - I actually asked for a transfer and was getting moved but I just found out my manager is resigning after Xmas herself as she can't handle the workload - guess that solves most of my problems though it's all made me reconsider where I want to go and if I do want to move out of that department.

I don't know your work or if you have the scope to transfer? Sorry I don't have more help. Is there anyone else you can get support from at work? For me, occupational health, hr and the manager above my line manager, were somewhat helpful, though they didn't really help me out when it came to conflicting with my direct manager as they were too reluctant to go above her head.

 

[Seagreen]

Sorry to learn that you are going through such a difficult time. I'm sure there are others using this forum that can relate to what you are going through at the moment. I am happy to provide a listening ear if you ever want to chat. Warm wishes :hug:

 

[Sandstone]

You are doing amazingly. You have gone back to work, and though it has been hard you are still there. You are recognising what you are and aren't capable of, and have gone back to reduced hours - for the moment. You are putting tremendous effort into accommodating change, which hard for anyone at any time. Please spend some time praising yourself for your achievements.

I wouldn't be looking for another job right now as it would be yet more change, but you are better able to judge how that would affect you. I think that if you loved your job before, then that feeling may come back as you heal.

What support do you have outside work?

 

[Brokensoul88]

I have a support worker at the rape crisis place I go & she is wonderful. I have spoken to an old manager in another dept who said a job was coming up, I'm wondering whether I should take it and start afresh.