Struggling; Thought I Had Left PTSD Behind

[majella]

Hi...I have just joined. I would like to introduce myself and say hello. I am a 38 year old Australian woman and I have PTSD and my doc says I have some other stuff too, which I believe are secondary disorders that have resulted from PTSD. I thought that PTSD was not a big issue for me anymore, that I had got through the worst of it and my days of flashbacks and nightmares and obssessive fear and feeling like I was choking and gasping for air and all I want to do is find a way to say something...I thought those days were over. But someone has become a major trigger in my life and I have found myself back in the throws of reacting to trauma. Right now I see myself surrounded by so much baggage and...I dunno...I see myself as a result of events and circumstances and I remember clawing my way out of that sense of identity a long time ago. I thought that I had found a way to feel like a real person instead of a series of wounds to treat and situations to avoid and fears to ease. I feel crushed and my body is yelling at me to run and find somewhere safe to breathe. I don't know what I am trying to achieve with these words...just testing the waters maybe. And I don't know what else to say right now.

 

[This Ends Now]

Magella,

Welcome to this forum. I am new here as well, but I have already seen progress as a result of the information and support. :smile:

This is a safe place for you to share your feelings and thoughts with others who can relate.

 

[Grama-Herc]

Welcome Majella,

I think you will find what you are looking for here and know that "judgement of others" is not something you will find here.

Lots of good people have offered lots of great info to help. Read, learn and feel safe

 

[shiraz]

Hi Majella,

I'm sorry you are going through all this again, that must be very disappointing for you. Welcome to the forum and I hope you find some answers here. There are many wonderful people here who will listen and support you.

Hugs and strength to you

:Hug_emoticon:
Shiraz

 

[her_indoors43]

:hello:gday majella......hope your weekend was great,,,looking forward to getting to know you.....take care.....:Hug_emoticon:

 

[pandora]

Hi..welcome to the forum. I thought that I would have 10 cbt sessions and be healed..go back to work. It does not work that way..I find it is a daily struggle really...it it took a while to get diagnosed//I am sure it takes a while to feel better. It does get easier to deal with the symptoms but you have to know your triggers and limitations. Just my experience though. I am 37..almost 38 also. I think I have had PTSD for over 20 years but did not seek out treatment until 5 years ago when I just could not fake it anymore.

 

[nie]

Welcome to the forum. There is a lot of great information here that can help you. I hope that you find it useful.

 

[Ann54]

Hi Majella

As a carer of a ptsd sufferer I see the effects of it and am so sorry you are suffering to. This is a great forum and I'm so glad I joined because I am reading posts from sufferers which is giving me a greater understanding of the illness.

Have you thought of going back to the doctor? I know my husband hates talking about it and he's been receiving treatment for two years and it clearly hasn't worked. Have you tried CBT?

:Hug_emoticon:

 

[pebbels]

Hi majella:hello:So sorry you are going through everything again, but from what i have read here it is very common what you are experiancing.:wall:

You have come to a safe place with warm caring sufferers and carers who can offer advice and support.

All the best majella:Hug_emoticon:Love the name:smile:

Pebs