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I'm struggling with my identity. I was diagnosed with DID and it's gotten worse ever since. Over the past two years, I've become co-conscious of the dissociation and blackouts and identity changes. I come to terms later with the messes I've made with these changes.
- I have the "abuser alter" where I severely abuse myself and I say very similar things that my abuser did, if not much, much more violent than I remember even my abuser saying. Self-harm, I even plan my own ways of how I'd off myself.
- The business-oriented one who will push anyone out of his way to get to the top. Very strong-willed. Smart, skilled in many things but very small regard for people and their emotions. Lacks love for others.
- Then there's the little child, the younger me, who fears everything but who laughs often. Who wants to live long, who loves parts of who he is, but doesn't know who he is yet because I forget my age and my past.
