Studies And Exams

[Tree23]

I would just like some advice from anyone else who's been in this position. For the past year during my studies my memories of abuse have always been on my mind. Everytime I put my head down to do some work it just keeps irritating me and I hate it.

Even during my official exams I would have to leave to go to the toilet to wash my face. Just because during the exam I would get these flash backs and memories. My next year of studies is after the summer and also my last year. I really need some advice on how to study and not be affected by these memories.

My grades have really been a reason as to why I haven't had any mental breakdowns yet. It keeps me and my family happy so if I don't do well it'll really feel like Ive disappointed everyone.

Thank you

 

[guilty girl]

Hey friend!!! I am too suffering with the same problem but I was molested and I molested my own real brother. I remembered it after 6 years and now I am only seeing dark clouds of depression , suicidal thoughts and unable to study.
But still you are a right person. You didnt abuse anyone so why to punish yourself.Just focus on your studies in order to enjoy this beautiful world.

 

[Tree23]

Hey friend!!! I am too suffering with the same problem but I was molested and I molested my own rea...

My heart goes out to you. Good luck with your studies and if you need to talk message me.

 

[cat-lady]

I have this problem too. I will quickly write down a short hand note to myself about the memory bothering me and then put it away. That helps me re-focus on the studies or exam because then that part of my mind that was pushing it to the surface knows it's written down to deal with later so it can stop pushing. Not sure it that would work for you but I hope it helps.

 

[SpiritFree]

For me it is during work, due to the mistakes I make and unable to grasp oral instructions. My coworkers think I am so dumb. When these incidents happen it makes me think back the reason I'm going thru. I believe a head injury due to physical abuse as a child is now manifesting as I age. I try not to fight these memories but when I feel humiliated due to mistakes at the job my thoughts goes back to that incident of being slammed against the wall where my head bounced twice and after that incident I began having weird symptoms. I just suck it up and keep a smile while I am dying inside and praying the hours go by fast to get out of there.

 

[Tree23]

I have this problem too. I will quickly write down a short hand note to myself about the memory bother...

Thanks for the reply cat. At this rate of willing to try anything. I'll let you know if it helps me.

 

[Tree23]

For me it is during work, due to the mistakes I make and unable to grasp oral instructions. My cowo...

Ahhh mate hold tight. My heart goes out to you but also try what cat mentioned in the comments, it might be able to help us both.