I have chosen the tag MR Hyde for a reason as from what i have read many of us could go by it. real name is carl (no shame here). I was in the middle americas in the mid 90's then OIF 07-09, OEF11-12. i finally gave into the monster within and filled out my pdhra truthfully ; (got escorted away)and now and underway with my peb. it came down to my sanity the constant covering things and hiding sucking it in. i would lose it at home instead of work. my wife stuck with me even though i was horrible she helped me cover because it is what i thought i had to do. i am in texas and dianosed with PTSD, Anxiety, panic disorder depresion, and some other things but i cant remember. my memory is ruined. anyway thanks for the advice that you guys have given that you didnt even know(better than most of the Docs)you have given it helps to be understood.