SeekingAfrica
Diamond Member
I come to this forum a lot when things are wrong, it's a bit of a safe place for me. But despite of things being really intense, I'm managing to get through some issues and problems, so I thought I would share something great for a change.
Successes in the last year:
- no matter how my health state is, I can now ride the bus without getting anxious (except around Christmas when crowds triple). I used to get so bad panic attacks each time that I wouldn't be able to get myself to get in a bus. But I got over that and it hasn't returned.
- I can now make phone calls (used to avoid phones like the plague-do only text messages)
- I feel safe and at home in my apartment - when my relationship broke in May and I moved, I was really panicked about living alone and I was waking up 5 times each night to check if the door was properly locked. I now feel safe and comfortable and home here, and that's wonderful feeling:)
Successes in the last 2 months:
- I traveled full-on for 2 weeks, went to social events and weddings and got through it despite the constant anxiety. It was intense, but I had to do it, and I did
- I asked for help
- I started to organize official documents and papers in binders, planners, and going to health checks- basically started dealing with everything I couldn't even think of trying for months because it all made me panic
- I started to buy clothes in my current size so I can be comfortable again, workout out and try to not emotionally overeat each time I'm anxious. Basically to take better care of myself.
- I went to social events that were important to me despite of the anxiety before them
Basically, I'm starting to ...live again. I'm addressing things I'm afraid of, things I need, trying to improve. Forgiving myself when I have to take a break, but taking big steps forward too(at least, big for me). I still have zillion things to deal with...but at least I'm going in the right direction, and I do feel satisfied with having managed these things that I mentioned.
Successes in the last year:
- no matter how my health state is, I can now ride the bus without getting anxious (except around Christmas when crowds triple). I used to get so bad panic attacks each time that I wouldn't be able to get myself to get in a bus. But I got over that and it hasn't returned.
- I can now make phone calls (used to avoid phones like the plague-do only text messages)
- I feel safe and at home in my apartment - when my relationship broke in May and I moved, I was really panicked about living alone and I was waking up 5 times each night to check if the door was properly locked. I now feel safe and comfortable and home here, and that's wonderful feeling:)
Successes in the last 2 months:
- I traveled full-on for 2 weeks, went to social events and weddings and got through it despite the constant anxiety. It was intense, but I had to do it, and I did
- I asked for help
- I started to organize official documents and papers in binders, planners, and going to health checks- basically started dealing with everything I couldn't even think of trying for months because it all made me panic
- I started to buy clothes in my current size so I can be comfortable again, workout out and try to not emotionally overeat each time I'm anxious. Basically to take better care of myself.
- I went to social events that were important to me despite of the anxiety before them
Basically, I'm starting to ...live again. I'm addressing things I'm afraid of, things I need, trying to improve. Forgiving myself when I have to take a break, but taking big steps forward too(at least, big for me). I still have zillion things to deal with...but at least I'm going in the right direction, and I do feel satisfied with having managed these things that I mentioned.
