Suicide

[SwordsPandaGirl]

I have no words to describe how I'm feeling. My world is just breaking apart.

3 days ago I attempted it. I lost all hope I once had. I'm still in a vast amount of pain and going through recovery. Its so difficult. I feel so alone in the world and I don't know how to pick myself up from this.

I've been told I'm to start with a new T who is more specialised. I don't know if I can let someone else in, it has hard enough trusting my current T.

I'm a huge mess. Everyday just seems harder and harder.

I just needed to get this out somehow. Thanks

 

[thematrix]

SwordsPandaGirl, can you call a crisis line right now? Please know you are not alone. I am not sure if this is helpful. It is a difficult road, I relate. You are not alone

 

[Justmehere]

I'm glad you are sharing and I am SO glad you are still with us. I survived my own suicide attempt a couple of years ago, and it was so dark at the time. I know it's hard to imagine things getting better - in time, it won't be this way and things will get better.

 

[SwordsPandaGirl]

Thanks @thematrix and @Justmehere . Sorry ive taken a while to respond. Im still in a lot of pain.

Thanks for your kind words and im sorry you've both been through this. It is hell :( I feel like nothing will get better :(

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Whenever you need a chat I am here for you. Please please contact me anytime.

Please stay safe. I am here for you all you need to do is ask.

:hug:s

 

[J_trustno1]

I'm really sorry about what you are going through. Listen to Santa, he is right! We are here for you whenever you need to talk and would love to help you. Don't ever think of hurting yourself again. You are a valuable person and we all love you. So take care of yourself and talk to us.

:hug:s swords :)

 

[Deleted member 20280]

You are a valuable person in your own right, always remember that you will always have us on this forum.

You have been a rock to me when I needed it and I will always be there for you.

 

[thematrix]

It can be like quicksand. I don't have any profound words of wisdom, wish I did, only that I am still here today and glad you all are too. Live for today SwordsPanda, even if you have to break it down to minutes and the next after that. You are meant to be here.

 

[SwordsPandaGirl]

Thanks everyone. :hug:s

It makes me feel a little better to know that I am not alone. You are all so kind, so thank you so much. x

 

[Amalia]

Hi all; I`m really sorry to invade but i can`t seem to post a new thread within this area; I took an overdose friday night and just seeking practical advice etc. SwordsPandaGirl I`m so sorry to hear what you`ve been through, and I do know exactly how you feel right now. I really do. :(

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi panda,

Please talk to any of us if you need to. We all think so much of you, please try and be kind to yourself and know we are all thinking of you.

Sammy

 

[SnowJo]

I have no words to describe how I'm feeling. My world is just breaking apart.

3 days ago I atte...

keeping talking to us! It will get better! I know the hell you are feeling, you are not alone... fight back! Happiness is possible, walk through this shit to get there... fight to live and you will get to experience joy again I promise!