Hi I am 66 years old been married to Ed for almost 47 years.He is 69 and a welder. Still works but part time now. We had 4 children;lost our oldest boy at 17 in a swimming accident in 1987. I am a homemaker and have worked as a waitress,cashier,and cleaning lady.
I design vintage looking dolls and stuffed animals and love working with old patterns. I also sew aprons, mens shirts,quilt,I also enjoy recylcling crafts and use to work for years with scouts,church and 4H.
I collect old cookbooks and trying new recipes.Have a large garden and do a lot of canning and jelly making. We had a small family farm but now just have the garden,some lovely hens and a few kitties.
I was born with a heart and lung defect but beat the odds and went on living. A few years ago I developed arthritis which hampers me from getting around a lot.
My husband developed a drinking problem about 3 years into our marriage. I have never drank nor smoked,and didn't know how to handle this. His drinking has caused awful things to happen in our marriage.But I stuck it out. He stopped drinking for years but started up again, got arrested and now there are large fines to pay and he can't drive for a year. This happened also back in 1982,1994,1999 and last month. He will go for years dry and then suddenly start in again.
I have always had a problem with ptsd it seems. Even as a kid if I was nervous or stressed out,I would get lost in my own neighborhood, become panicked and terribly scared. My mother would tell me I was being stupid and even punish me for it. As a teen it seemed to go away and then as the years went on it came back worse than ever.
Somedays I am afraid to drive to the post office(which is only 3 miles down the road for fear I won't make it home. My husband wants me to drive him to the jail(he was ordered to serve 24 hours today)and it is 20 miles from here across 2 initersections and I do not think that I can do that. I have not slept for days,I am sick to my stomach trying to imagine where I am suppose to take him trying to remember any land marks and I am scared. I try and think about where I am taking him and he starts with all these road numbers and routes and I keep asking him not to do that. I feel so scared inside. Our 2 sons live near by and I asked them to help by taking their dad for me but they won't do it,keep telling me I have to do it that it will be fine and that scares me even more. I looked outside before and even my own backyard and woods look strange.
When I found this forum and read the posts I cried,because this is how I have been for years and no one seemed to understand. I am sorry that people have this and have to go through what i do and I pray that someday we will not have this anymore. I wished you all didn't have this.
I am thankful I find you all and I hope that I become as brave as you all are in over coming ptsd as well as you do.God bless you all.
I design vintage looking dolls and stuffed animals and love working with old patterns. I also sew aprons, mens shirts,quilt,I also enjoy recylcling crafts and use to work for years with scouts,church and 4H.
I collect old cookbooks and trying new recipes.Have a large garden and do a lot of canning and jelly making. We had a small family farm but now just have the garden,some lovely hens and a few kitties.
I was born with a heart and lung defect but beat the odds and went on living. A few years ago I developed arthritis which hampers me from getting around a lot.
My husband developed a drinking problem about 3 years into our marriage. I have never drank nor smoked,and didn't know how to handle this. His drinking has caused awful things to happen in our marriage.But I stuck it out. He stopped drinking for years but started up again, got arrested and now there are large fines to pay and he can't drive for a year. This happened also back in 1982,1994,1999 and last month. He will go for years dry and then suddenly start in again.
I have always had a problem with ptsd it seems. Even as a kid if I was nervous or stressed out,I would get lost in my own neighborhood, become panicked and terribly scared. My mother would tell me I was being stupid and even punish me for it. As a teen it seemed to go away and then as the years went on it came back worse than ever.
Somedays I am afraid to drive to the post office(which is only 3 miles down the road for fear I won't make it home. My husband wants me to drive him to the jail(he was ordered to serve 24 hours today)and it is 20 miles from here across 2 initersections and I do not think that I can do that. I have not slept for days,I am sick to my stomach trying to imagine where I am suppose to take him trying to remember any land marks and I am scared. I try and think about where I am taking him and he starts with all these road numbers and routes and I keep asking him not to do that. I feel so scared inside. Our 2 sons live near by and I asked them to help by taking their dad for me but they won't do it,keep telling me I have to do it that it will be fine and that scares me even more. I looked outside before and even my own backyard and woods look strange.
When I found this forum and read the posts I cried,because this is how I have been for years and no one seemed to understand. I am sorry that people have this and have to go through what i do and I pray that someday we will not have this anymore. I wished you all didn't have this.
I am thankful I find you all and I hope that I become as brave as you all are in over coming ptsd as well as you do.God bless you all.
