Thank You Everyone ...

[nickeldoor]

Hi all, I want to thank those who have helped me in one way or the other, on my road to recovery.

In May 2009, I wrote a thread "Seeking a Resolution for Life". Back then, I was totally lost and disoriented in life, and I mean it. I had no friends to turn to, my business was failing and I was in debt. I was so ashamed of my failures and past experiences as an abused child. The invisible scars came up after I started abusing animals, and I realized it that I was dysfunctional. I was 30 year old. It took me nearly 3 decades to realize that my past experiences had obstructed me to a fully functional and fulfilled life. I felt shameful and unsure of myself every time I talked to people. I felt really worthless for many many years ...

After I closed my business in a foreign land, I went back to my homeland. My temper was really bad and I always went into heated arguments with my mother. I felt so worthless and depressed then.

Now, I have started work in an MNC, and are being offered a good salary and opportunities. My relationship with my family has also improved. My life in my homeland is also great, and I feel so much better now. I no longer went into depression easily, or do I experienced PTSD again.

I just want to express my thanks to this forum and to those unselfish and caring people who have sacrificed so much of their energy, efforts, and time to helping out those who have had and are suffering so much from their life which they have very little control over.

I was one of those whose life was totally messed up and abused, and once again, thank you everyone for helping me picked up my senses and move on with my life.

Thank you everyone.
Nickeldoor.

 

[amethist]

You probably helped some people as well, as we all suffer in one way or another. Some are carers, some are sufferers. We all help each other in lots of different ways, by sharing our experiences and telling others how we got where we are now.

By you posting this, it will help some see that you can move on to a calmer more peaceful life.

Take care, good luck and keep moving forward.

Amethist.

 

[clare]

Thank you Nickledoor,

I wondered how you were doing. Your posts really helped me feel less alone and now reading that doing so well gives me such hope! A great way to start my day!:smile:

All the best,

clare

 

[nickeldoor]

Today, I had a ptsd recurrence at one of the burger king restaurants. Once seated inside with a friend, flashbacks began popping up without my knowledge. I used to work at BK when i was 13 years old. Before this, I was heavily abused by my parents, and BK was like a sanctuary to me back then, where I worked a lot just to avoid my family and home.

However, while travelling back home today, I broke down. I tried to control my emotions and luckily I kinda knew that BK could be one of the trigger points for my ptsd, but however i failed to control it while I was inside. When I broke down, I felt worthless and shameful, and thought of ending my life, as I looked at life very depressingly, knowing that life is still a long-distance marathon that I would never finish it well.

Maybe in the next few months, after I am more stable in my new job, I may want to look for a therapist to seek help on this. Can someone please suggest what are the things that I have to look for in a therapist?

I have plans to migrate to the USA, will there be any restrictions on people with mental health history if I really go seek help with a therapist? I am afraid that USA immigration may reject my application especially when I have a record with the therapist.

Recovering ...
nickeldoor.