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[anthony]

He is learning jods... he is pushing himself with dares, he is finding out again, relearning that nothing bad is going to happen by getting on a train and mixing with people. Great progress...

 

[jods]

Thanks Anthony.

I keep reminding myself that he is the only that can do these sort of things in order to heal. I know its hurting him like hell but if it doesn't hurt him then he isn't going to get better is he?!
It just sucks seeing him hurting this bad. It freaked me out a little bit because it was like de ja vu,which in reality for both of us it is I suppose. I was just surprised that I was feeling just as helpless as I did back then.
MMMM-time for me to book another appt with my doc I think!

 

[anthony]

I know its hurting him like hell but if it doesn't hurt him then he isn't going to get better is he?

Exactly correct.

 

[jods]

Not happy jan! Threw myself a quick pity party last night after doing my online assesment to go back to my old job (I was a checkout chick & before I left I was helping run/oversee the operators & do refunds etc). Imagine my surprise when I got an email telling me that I was not successful in my application as a checkout chick. Talk about knock me down with a feather! I'm just hoping my old boss has already put me through the system before they see my results! Had to laugh though. I mean of course a computer knows that I'd can't do the job based on a 1hr online assessment, maybe I was hurting it's feelings by hitting my keys too hard in order to complete it in the allocated time. Oh well just have to wait & see!
Just one of those weeks I spose- sick 3yo that cant go to daycare, trashed hubby from therapy & rejected by a computer. Had my 3 crap things for the week so it can only get better!

 

[jods]

Grrr just need to vent. Today started off rather good. Went into town with hubby & son for hubbys appt. Thought it would be nice to take little one to the museum for the first time so he could see some dinosaur bones while hubby was at the docs. Enjoying our time looking around then my phone rings. It's my old boss saying that due to the online test results (i didnt score well in the safety area) she can't take me back. I told her I was grateful for all of her help in trying to get me back & that I hope I didnt make her look like a fool in front of her boss for recommeneding me in the first place. I have no-one to blame but myself for not thinking like a suckhole employee & putting down answers that I felt were bs. Now I have to wait 12mths before I can reapply. Anyway as soon as I got off the phone,tears started streaming down my face. I felt like I let my boys down. Told hubby the news & he took it really well & said not to worry about it. I love him so much for that. So now I'm working on the theory that things happen for a reason & that maybe I'm not suppose to return to work just yet. I'm still pissed with myself but I'm going to wake up tomorrow & leave this crappy day where it belongs-in the past. Thanks for letting me vent.

 

[DesertDweller]

Jods,

Things do happen for a reason, I am sure that something better is waiting for you somewhere else and by this happening you will now be able to do this thing that will be better for you . It just might take a bit for it to materialize. I am looking at all my problems in the same way. I feel that I might have needed a redirection in my life and my PTSD is "helping" me with that. I cant function to do certain things that are required of me at my current job, alot to do with concentration. I am taking it that I was on the wrong path and this is my opportunity to change my line of work to something that I am meant to do.. I am not sure what yet, but I still believe this. At the end of the day, as hard as things can be we still have our families, no matter if we have the perfect family or the most dysfunctional, we have them none the less. I hope you have a better day today.

 

[Jen]

Hi Jods sorry that you missed out on the job that you wanted. Im sure something else will come up for you its good to see you have hubbys support there for you.
Jen

 

[jods]

Thanks DesertDweller & Jen for your support.
I woke this morning & thought screw them, it's their loss! I realised that maybe I need to be at home with my boys just for a little bit longer so I can support hubby during his trauma therapy.
You're right DesertDweller about giving myself a chance to embrace a new life path. Don't know what it will be as yet. When I know what it is,I know I'm going to shine.

 

[jods]

Hi All,
Hope everyone is well. I am the bearer of fantastic news. We made it through the PTSD anniversary without either one of us having a meltdown!
We decided to concentrate on our wedding anniversary (which was the next day) instead. We got rid of the 3yo & had a romantic evening in a beautiful hotel & went to the casino & stayed out until 4am. It was wonderful. (OK I was a little worse for wear the next day, hubby was fine). It was soooo nice to spend some time away & just enjoy each others company. Hubby is trashed now but he said it was well & truly worth it.
I can't tell you how proud I am of my amazing man for giving me the perfect gift of treating me like a queen for the day. I love you babe, thanks for an amazing weekend!

 

[anthony]

Congrats Jods... well done to you both, and glad you enjoyed your anniversary.

 

[Kims_Man]

Hey Jods,

Way to go! Glad to hear you had such a wonderful time. They are so special when they come around.

Congratulations on your anniversary!

 

[Jen]

Hi Jods I am very happy for you that you had a nice anniversary its nice to be pampered by the one you love my hubby used to be the best at it he used to buy flowers all the time for me I know he really loves me actually I am all he has got in his little world he knows that.
Heres hoping he gets himself out of his depression in the near future. Life goes on!
Jen