The Act Of Teaching Others

[ms spock]

have you ever reenacted a trauma like this or in a similar way?

Yes and I do the teaching thing as well. For me it is a way of filling up the space so I cannot be attacked, emotionally tortured and abused. I cannot sit with silence very well. My mother used to have goes at me all the time so I got used to saying what I thought she wanted to hear, to avoid pain. It is an ingrained habit with me.

I think that when I ran away from home to save the lives of my sisters and brothers I met a crazy psychologist so I modeled my behaviour on her, which was not helpful, but I thought it was a way of not behaving like my parents.