So things have been stressful lately.
History
Me the mom is diagnosed C-ptsd/ strongly suggested bi polar waiting on psych evaluation
My kiddo diagnosed Severe ADHD/ODD/Drepession/Anxiety/OCD
So there’s always a lot of working around elevated emotions in my household we do therapy and counselling and psych check ins I’m med resistant as it makes my suicidal symptom's worse. My kiddo has been pulled off her adhd meds as she is severely underweight.
Since stopping the adhd meds the ODD and OCD has skyrocketed through the roof. Life in my home has become a literal war zone!! None of the practices we put in place are being effective and the constant yelling slamming screeching is triggering me and I am being reactive.
I’ve tried separating all members of the family lots of sleepovers, tons of activities apart. Making sure there is a reduction of events where historically behavioural escalation has happened so it doesn’t become a factor.
But damn this walking on eggshells, fighting to manage all of these little aspects of life to help mitigate the combative odd behaviours is really causing my own mental health to regress. I feel like I am trapped in an abusive situation again and there is no way to get out. This is making it really hard for me to keep finding ways to parent a difficult child who needs so much extra support.
There is no physical violence but there is so much manipulation and verbal aggression and no amount of gentle parenting or informed parenting is getting through.
The latest issue is she’s mad her classically hyperactive class clown adhd brother doesn’t have to take meds. She is obsessed with the different treatment practices. But he doesn’t self medicate, isn’t suicidal, doesn’t drink and do drugs and his greatest failing is he talks to much and doesn’t sit still. She does self medicate does practice self harm does obsess over suicide and generally thinks if any situation an adult would disprove of is a perfect opportunity to practice independence.
Sorry I’m ranting in a safe place. I am just tired and having trouble balancing my emotions and reactions. I love my kids and some days are harder than others.
History
Me the mom is diagnosed C-ptsd/ strongly suggested bi polar waiting on psych evaluation
My kiddo diagnosed Severe ADHD/ODD/Drepession/Anxiety/OCD
So there’s always a lot of working around elevated emotions in my household we do therapy and counselling and psych check ins I’m med resistant as it makes my suicidal symptom's worse. My kiddo has been pulled off her adhd meds as she is severely underweight.
Since stopping the adhd meds the ODD and OCD has skyrocketed through the roof. Life in my home has become a literal war zone!! None of the practices we put in place are being effective and the constant yelling slamming screeching is triggering me and I am being reactive.
I’ve tried separating all members of the family lots of sleepovers, tons of activities apart. Making sure there is a reduction of events where historically behavioural escalation has happened so it doesn’t become a factor.
But damn this walking on eggshells, fighting to manage all of these little aspects of life to help mitigate the combative odd behaviours is really causing my own mental health to regress. I feel like I am trapped in an abusive situation again and there is no way to get out. This is making it really hard for me to keep finding ways to parent a difficult child who needs so much extra support.
There is no physical violence but there is so much manipulation and verbal aggression and no amount of gentle parenting or informed parenting is getting through.
The latest issue is she’s mad her classically hyperactive class clown adhd brother doesn’t have to take meds. She is obsessed with the different treatment practices. But he doesn’t self medicate, isn’t suicidal, doesn’t drink and do drugs and his greatest failing is he talks to much and doesn’t sit still. She does self medicate does practice self harm does obsess over suicide and generally thinks if any situation an adult would disprove of is a perfect opportunity to practice independence.
Sorry I’m ranting in a safe place. I am just tired and having trouble balancing my emotions and reactions. I love my kids and some days are harder than others.