The Doomsday Trend

[Shellbell]

Abstract, I'm glad you are still thinking about getting that lump checked out and are talking on here about it to help you move towards being able to do that :hug:

Bubz, I hope you are okay? Sounds like such a horrible, difficult time. I know what you mean about the app to get put down, if I didn't have kids, I might be asking for a photocopy! :hug:

I am really overdue my pap smear, and that is playing on my mind. Must get to that one day.

 

[Abstract]

Hi Bubzilla,

I would like an app to put all of THEM down not you! :sour: But yes I sympathise and could do with one myself. :rolleyes:

I am sorry you had to go through something like that. Huge credit to you is all I can say. sending you some hugs your way if you want them. :hug:

You are very kind. Please don't feel obliged in any way. I will just potter along as I can.

Thanks Shellbell. Hugs back to you. :hug: I am doing baby steps. Fist thing is to say to myself I am not really going to do it and just talk about it and start taking steps. That seems to get me where I need to go sometimes.

Me too re smear. Maybe we can both work our way towards that eventually. Feels impossible.

 

[HëllaBubz]

You guys are so sweet!

The annoying thing is, even if they ARE put down, the damage has been done!

I must admit, I'm not coping very well, I burnt myself twice whilst making my partner dinner....pretty rare for me, and I'm having trouble reading, holding a conversation, focusing my eyes, even coming up with basic things.....really not feeling well.

Shellbell, Abstract, I must say that I really look forward to your posts, they are always entertaining and helpful, and it makes my day to hear from you.

xoxo

 

[Abstract]

But they deserve to be put down anyway!:grumpy: But I do know that a magic wand would be more useful. Actually we need an icon for that.

I am sorry you are struggling so. It is very understandable but I know that doesn't help one jot. I hate those feelings. :( The eye unable to focus thing bugs me as it makes me feel disorientated.

I hope you can do lots of nurturing and grounding things. I find my soft blanket when I feel like that. One teeny step at time gets one there.

Sending you support. xoxox

 

[Britt.f7]

doctor were so sweet and gentle

Okay, I just read your first post on this thread and was thoroughly upset by the treatment you received. I didn't know where to start quoting. :mad:

I believe what you said. The first time having an exam didn't hurt for me was the first checkup after I had my son. When I told my doc that, she said 'good for you' in a not so good tone. Between that and some of her behavior while I was pregnant, I dropped her.

When I went through my first bout of PTSD in my twenties, I had some awesome gyno's. One of them did have to medicate me, but she was great. She totally understood. Any doc after the bad one were also great. I just have to learn to breathe and relax. When I was going through the PTSD, that didn't happen. Do not feel bad about the reactions you have. They are normal.

Are you allowed to find a set doctor to go to? Maybe you can call the doctor who did the laser and ask her if she can recommend someone. Or even calling her office. Just explain your situation. You would think in that particular business all the docs would be compassionate. It is unfortunate that they are not.

I need to have another mammogram. However, other then the pain, I feel exposed and vulnerable. I hate it, so I have totally put it off.

I really hope you can find someone more compassionate. You deserve to have someone like that.

 

[HëllaBubz]

Hey Brit,

Yeah, those people were jerks, I'm so glad I don't have to deal with them now.
The doctors are pretty good, and if worse comes to worst, I will simply ask to have another appointment as I'm not able to go ahead with it.

Don't know if I mentioned it before, but my most recent assault was an indecent assault where the guy grabbed my breast and wouldn't let go....so the thought of a mammogram sends chills down my spine.

I actually had a really good shift at work today, so I'm feeling a little better, but very exhausted, and will most likely fall asleep at my laptop again.
I desperately need to buy a new phone, as the one I currently have is screwing up to the point where calls and texts from work are not getting through.....it's only $350 to get a decent one to replace it.....but it might as well be a million dollars right now. :notworthy::cry:

Worst part is, I can't afford to use a standard phone because all of my emails, calendar, navigation and contacts are on my smart phone, and it's the only thing which keeps me organised.....if I have to have several things in several places, I'm thoroughly screwed!

I guess the best thing I can be grateful for right now is that I'm free of cancer for Christmas time, I'll have to make do with everything else, it would be ungrateful of me to whinge about material things when I (sort of) have my health back somewhat. :notworthy::sorry::barefoot:

 

[Abstract]

Bubzilla,

Material things are not important but the lack of them can make our lives more difficult and when one is stretched to the limit that is far from helpful. :( I am sorry these things are impeding you. It doesn't help at all.

Cancer free for Christmas is a wonderful gift to get. :):playful: Maybe you can get a package of hugs parcelled up from us on here too. :hug:

 

[Abstract]

I am thinking that I am going to investigate which professional I would prefer to check the lump whilst reassuring myself that I am not going to do it and am just exploring it as a concept. Just a disconnected concept.

 

[Shellbell]

Abstract, happy to see you are still 'investigating' options. Hugs! :hug:

 

[HëllaBubz]

I'm really pleased Abstract, sometimes a disconnected concept is a valuable spend of time.....wish I had a few more of them!

xoxo

 

[Abstract]

Thank you Shell and Bub. :shy:

Feeling a bit pathetic but had a mini meltdown after posting that even though told myself it was just a concept and that I wasn't going to actually do anything. I am wondering if I need to just give myself a stern talking to. Suck it up and do what you have to do. Maybe I need to let myself have the meltdown but just jolly well do it. I am sure the thing is bigger than a few weeks ago. Found myself contemplating cancer calmly and thinking that wouldn't be so bad but then the realisation of then needing way more medical check ups hit home. That is a good enough reason to get moving.

Dr H; Dr B; Dr F; Nurse.

 

[HëllaBubz]

All improvements start with just a thought . xox