The Meds Are Right In Front Of Me

[MissKB]

I'm really doing bad with my meds. Last month after I picked them up at pharmacy, I really just kept them in bag. I am on several anti-depressants and anti-psychotic meds. Some I take in the am and then at night I take one. For a month and a half, I've just quit taking my day meds. I really don't know why. I just stare at them. I take my night meds because that is the only way I can sleep. I even had withdraws from quitting but toughed it out. I even feel my depression getting worse. But I just look at them and then go on.

I know I need them. Even this month I got them refilled when I haven't even taken 1 from last month. Why am I just looking at the bottle and not taking them. I feel my self falling. I know if I could just fill my pill box reminder up with them, then I would take them. I usually have it filled 1 week at a time, then I'm good. I just am not filling the box. At night I know I need my Seroquel to get to sleep so I take it. But there are 3 others I am to take in the day.

Does anyone relate? And does anyone have anything to say that may motivate me. I bet this all sounds stupid, they are right there in front of me!!!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I relate and struggle with this every day. I also have bipolar disorder but I still struggle to take my medication becasue I am angry. I don't know your story...do you have another diagnoses besides PTSD?

Have you told your doctor that gives you the medication you do this? Do you have a therapist to tell this too? A therapist can help work out feelings.

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi MissKB,

I could have written this post, I even spent thousands of dollars of herbal meds because I didn't want to go to the doctor and go on their meds. I tried to cut mine down myself and that didn't go well after just a few days I felt so sick I went straight back up to the correct dose and haven't tried again. I hate the thought of being on anything and I suffer badly from thinking they themselves are going to kill me. I take my seroquel every three hours during the day as well as at night and I have to force myself to take it.
When I went to the Doctor mine sat in the cupboard for 3 months before I could bring myself to open the box and take them, I got to the stage where I knew if I didn't take them it wouldn't be good I got scared and took them.

So no you are not stupid at all, loads of people are like us, my very close friend that passed away told me once that she needed a pill to be able to take her pills and she was 72.

I hope you can get the courage to take them and hopefully they will make you better don't leave it until you have to like I did

Take care

Sammy

 

[MissKB]

...do you have another diagnoses besides PTSD?

Have you told your doctor that gives you the medication you do this? Do you have a therapist to tell this too? A therapist can help work out feelings.

Ayesha I am Bi-Polar also leaning on depression mostly. I told my therapist about it and she stressed how important my meds are. I know all that. I've been on this current recipe for 6 years. I just have no motivation to box them and take them. I didn't tell my psychiatrist, I know she would go off on me. But thanks to those who understand.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I could have said the same.....15 years ago. And then a tough love doctor sat me down and gave it to me straight. She said if I don't start taking my meds regularly I could end up like this FOREVER and most likely get worse. I sat there thinking "HOLY CRAP!" (I had my mother as an example of what I did not want to become, so yeah....) I loved that doctor for her no-nonsense style. I was really sad when she moved away. I never found another quite like her.

 

[Justmehere]

I feel that way a lot. I try to focus on what I am motivated to do and try to see the meds as a way to help me do this things.

This can be hard when I'm depressed as I lose motivation for anything but stay in bed and hide from the world - but even then, the meds make even that more tolerable.

It's still hard. I takes meds for an autoimmune disease in addition to psych meds. If I don't take the meds for the autoimmune disease, I will go blind. I'm terrified of going blind, and yet I still skip doses and constantly take 1/2 what I'm prescribed. I think it's party denial or anger that I have this disease to begin with. I'm constantly lectured to take them more...Which somehow makes me drawn to sabotage myself all the more. It gets easier if I focus on how the meds will help. But still rough.