The Moment????

[macbeth]

PTSD is very different to other metal heath issues in that there is a moment where it began. For me it was 10:05 am 14th March 2003. The moment when I perceived my life was about to end. For myself, it was a moment of clarity when my ex went for the knife. He had tried to strangle me and told me he was to kill me. I didn't believe him until he strangled me. I passed out. When I came too he was still there. When he re entered our house he said the words that would forever change my life. "That's it!!! I am finishing this, I am getting a knife"!! These words still chill me to the bone. The weird thing is in that moment all time stood still. It is like you see in the movies when time slows down. Also I felt calm when I realised "this is it, this is what it's like to die". That was the moment.

 

[Sammyiam]

I am so sorry my friend that you have had to deal with this, the fear that you feel at that moment you will never ever forget , when you go to open your mouth to scream and nothing comes out, or to try to move but are frozen in your body like ice unable to move a muscle, just watching them, it is like time stands still and your whole world flashes before you're eyes, I remember that feeling well to.

Just remember we are there to help you Macbeth, you have been a true friend on here to me and I hope I can be the same back to you. You have helped so many on here, they will also be there for you

Take care

 

[macbeth]

I thank you too @Sammyiam. You have helped me in more ways than you will ever know. :hug:s my friend.

 

[KwanYingirl]

@macbeth you could've been writing down my life with my ex. It took a lot of courage and time to get away and I never knew when he was going to slam me against the wall and strangle me. I kept a six inch knife under my mattress. Too bad I never got the chance to use it.

 

[macbeth]

Thank you @KwanYingirl for your insight. I send my sincerest warm wishes and hugs to you.

 

[shimmerz]

I lived this two. Twice. Think I would have learned the first time. But truly, I have to ask, what causes people to literally want to kill spouses? What is that? Seriously?

 

[KwanYingirl]

Well, in the case of my psycho ex, he grew up in a repressed violent home run by idiots. One of his sisters said he was beaten so badly he often was knocked out. I also think he was I diagnosed brittle diabetic and he would become enraged with the snap of a finger. I don't know why he wished me dead, he definitely had brain damage. He was a genius, too. What a waste of talent.

 

[Friday]

@KwanYingirl Were we married to the same man? :cautious:

 

[shimmerz]

@FridayJones lol lol lol. Actually, why am I laughing? This is so sad.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Dickheads

 

[KwanYingirl]

He still stalks me

 

[Friday]

Yep. Mine, too. I'm about to have to change my name & social & do the double-life thing (the courts, in their infinite wisdom, gave him 50% custody...after proving child abuse, child neglect, and assault with intent -strangled me and fractured my skull. Because I didn't know any better, this was all done in family court instead of criminal court, so the district attorney won't touch the criminal case now with a ten foot pole.).

So I'm stuck here, trying to love a life under his nose. Which, in this automated world, is impossible of someone has access to your name, bday, social, etc.