General The Struggle Bus Has Left The Station

[medley29]

I've been alternating between feeling stronger and feeling incredibly anxious and sad. I get on here and read and I start feeling better. Didn't get a response to my good morning text this morning. On one hand, I already knew he most likely wouldn't, but when I actually DON'T get that response, it's a trigger for my own anxiety. I'm hoping with some exposure, this will get easier for me.

As the day goes on, I calm down and get distracted, so it gets better. Sometimes when he's barely talking and little things happen to remind me of him, I get really sad. Does anyone else experience this? Missing my fella big time today.

 

[Sweetpea76]

Isolation plays hell with your own anxiety, for sure.

 

[Pretty Hurts]

yes, i do at times. these days i try to wait it out until he reaches out to me. unfortunately most of the time he'll eventually text me about something pertaining to our household. a package to look out for, about a bill, or to ask i'll pick something up on the way home that he/we need. i tell myself, at least he's engaging in our life together when he does this. if i have something to say or ask, i text about it then. when he texts about a good grade on a quiz/exam, something our cat did that was funny/or a funny pic i know he's in a better mood and ride thst out with him. it's not easy to wait him out, but it helps me not feel rejected and anxious when i initiate the text and he doesn't respond for a long time or not at all.

 

[Cavegirl]

I really felt you on what you wrote. I HATE the waiting for texts. He told me once all casual like in passing, it's not like I need to talk to you EVERY day. Ouch. So I really try to go every other day. I might be crazy but it seems to me if I break my rule and text the next day he ignores my text.

So annoying. I try so hard not to take it personally but I do think it's ME he doesn't want to talk do. I really do.

 

[medley29]

He blew up on me Thanksgiving Day. Probably my fault. He had not responded to me for two weeks. I posted a simple message on his Facebook for Thanksgiving. It wasn't overly mushy or emotional. He ended up deleting it, and I wanted to know why. He ended up losing his shit on me and making me feel like no matter what I do, it's wrong. He's still isolating. I haven't reached out again. Maybe I will at some point... We are still together according to him.... Just waiting to see what happens I suppose.