The Tension Is Palpable!!

[Deleted member 34535]

For all of us who are out in our communities across the country, there is one thing that in my opinion is undeniable. The tension is palpable. Delivering my dead fish today in the Washington, D.C. suburbs, I could just feel the tension and angst. Many of us here have hyper-vigilance due to our PTSD. You can just feel that negative spiritual energy everywhere. And I think it is just a damn shame!!!!

We need to take extra special care during times like these. I went to see my Therapist a week ago and told her I was feeling good and doing fine. Then we are inundated with all of the hideous negative news. We here do not need any help feeling like crap. That just happens as by-product of our disease. And then we hear all of the filthy news about true evil and that gets thrown on top of what is already a difficult disease to deal with.

I work 6 days a week. If I am lucky, I can make a few hours to go fishing some time during the week. There are days like today where I would have loved to stay in bed because I was and have been in a really foul mood over all of this news of pure evil. But I have to live and do my job. It is what it is. I do not have the time nor the proclivity to hate anyone.

So this makes me think that evil flourishes where there is abundant idle time, for idle time is the devil's workshop. I believe this to be true in my humble opinion. If everyone were busy bettering themselves, they may not have time to contemplate doing evil. Just a thought. I wish everyone well. Extra care is needed during this time of tribulation. Please take it......we all need it!

 

[ladee]

This is true ! I live in a rural Texas town with no prior problems with race. But I can feel it now when I go out in public. One of my favorite people in town is an older black lady that always wears the most amazing 'church hats' , just everyday wear for her... Her and I have been friends since I moved here. We talk and laugh and I give her rides home from the grocery store... saw her today... she has amazing energy and spirit and is always so uplifting to be around... she talk about how her 'legs hurt all the time but she just keeps hippity hoppin along' She is very precious to me.. We always hug and take the time to see how each other is doing.. we were getting 'looks' from other blacks in the store today... I wanted to cry !!! It was directed toward me. I didn't feel scared. I felt so sad.
Hope for everyone having a bad time right now, regardless of the reason... that we some how, some way, can find one minute to be kind to one another....

 

[Deleted member 34535]

Ladee, I am sorry you had such a bad experience. I will say it again......it is just so senseless.....and it is such a damn worthless shame. We are all people regardless of skin color. But this view does not fit into the puzzle of those who profit from having people of different ethnic groups and political affiliations in a frenzy. They need us at each other's throats so we are so emotional that we can't really see what their real motives are. Again, It's just a damn shame!!!!

 

[mamachick]

crc- I agree, idle time is devils worship. I have quite a bit of idle time and I dont think it is good for anyone. Sometimes I think of things that I have never had time to consider, such as what others think about something or me, etc. very irrelevant stuff that I never cared about and have to remind myself not to go there. Although I dont do evil during my time, it just isnt good for anyone.

I am sorry you do not have more free time as well. I am trying to use mine to recover, but others with too much time dont rally like that if you get what I mean. These are bad times. We cant solve the problems with more violence either. Take care of yourself, I hear this weighing heavy on your heart.

 

[Deleted member 34535]

Thank you brat17 for your kindness. If we are pure of heart, then idle time is ok. It is not ok for me though. I am so used to getting up and going to work every day that I don't know what I would do If I were not so fortunate and blessed to be able to do so. I credit God for showing me work as the way I could survive with the detrimental effects that child abuse brings us. It proved to be too much for my brother and he took his life 4 and 1/2 years ago. Every day is a battle that I try to hide with my smiley face. But it is a battle that I am winning one day at a time. Blessings to all!

 

[mamachick]

I agree. I wish I was working and as busy as I use to be. I never watched tv or explored computer. My time was so budgetted. Life was much better then. You are very strong.

I am so sorry that you lost your brother to suicide. I have not personally experienced this, but my sister had a suicidal-give up attitude and then died of pancreatic cancer last year. I miss her so much.

Keep fighting that battle and know that you are winning!

 

[Sideways]

@crc53liamt - I agree with the above that you are incredibly strong. It must take an amazing effort to work the hours that you do alongside PTSD, and I want my personal opinion to detract from that achievement at all. It is a credit to you, and hopefully you find it helpful to some degree in dealing with your symptoms.

Just my opinion- the tension you're experiencing is no doubt palpable where you are, because the tension is being felt all around the world. But IMHO over-simplifications and over-generalisations aren't necessarily helpful. Not for issues like this one. I think the issues are complex.

And, as a person in the depths of a depressive episode, sweeping emotive statements like "idle time is the devil's workshop"...ouch! I'm not a "busy" person at the moment by any stretch of the imagination, but I would very much like to think that by failing to keep myself busy, I am inviting "pure evil" into my home or my mind.

My thoughts are with those effected by these events, and I very much hope that the tension, and threat, eases soon.

 

[Deleted member 34535]

@crc53liamt - I agree with the above that you are incredibly strong. It must...

Ragdoll, I am sorry you took it upon yourself to take that statement personally. But the statement, "Idle Time is The Devil's Workshop" I believe to be a true statement now and has been for all of human history. To choose good or to choose evil is a free will choice each individual makes. Ragdoll, you know in your heart that you are not evil and are a good person, so that statement should not bother you in the least. That would be the same as someone trying to infer I am a lazy, irresponsible person. There would be only one response to an accusation like this for me. Laugh hysterically!

 

[Sideways]

Thank you. I appreciate the sentiment. I really do.

My point was more that, even when posting about non-ptsd related issues, the audience here is primarily people suffering from ptsd. We are not all able to avoid 'idle time'. Over-generalising with statements can be unhelpful, as global statements are often taken to apply to everyone, which would include me, and anyone else reading along.

Similarly, your statement about what 'I know in my heart' is simply untrue. Having complex ptsd, I have the attending morbid self concept, which is the subject of many years of therapy, and common to many members here.

Like I said, I appreciate the sentiment. Just giving the heads up about the specific audience that we have at this forum and issues with over-generalising.

 

[Deleted member 34535]

Thank you. Where does oversensitivity stop though. I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams to be able to be a self-sufficient human being. But with this blessing comes exposure and responsibility. In the original thread, I did not say anything derogatory about those who were unable to work due to their PTSD. Again, I am blessed to be able to go to work every day 6 days a week. I am out there in the world and I was just stating things what I felt while out in the world. If I were reading a thread about from someone who was out in the world and I was unable to do so and I disagreed with them, I would simply shrug my shoulders and move on with no reply. If the only threads were those we agreed with and applied directly to us, then this and all sites like this would cease to exist. TKU

 

[Sideways]

did not say anything derogatory about those who were unable to work due to their PTSD.

Respectfully, I disagree.

The thrust of your post was that you were working 6 days a week and 'idle time is the devil's workshop'. I don't think it's much of a stretch to read that as: I work a lot, and people who are idle are encouraging evil.

Again, I actually do appreciate the sentiment of your post, but I would maintain that over-generalising is often unhelpful. Particularly with regard to over-generalisation that can be easily relatable to a person's experience with ptsd.

Many of us here are unable to work. That's the reality of the audience here. I'm not advocating political correctness gone mad, just a little awareness of the particular audience here.

 

[The Albatross]

I would like to see, statistically whether or not the reality of people here is that they are unable to work, as it seems about 50/50 to me but that's just a guess. I don't give much inclination to the audience... an opinion is an opinion and the voice of the poster is equal to everyone else's. The OP/Opening poster's topic. Catering to an audience now are we? Sheesh.

Added in edit: I am fortunate in that recent events have not affected my area and everybody seems to be as courteous of others as ever, though I am hardly metro. We had an incident where a police car in Daytona was flamed by a Molotov cocktail and a note left supporting Black Lives Matters... though no one was injured. Here though, everybody seems to be getting along as best we can... as ever that's why I like to live here.