Thoughts On Wanting To Die...

[MrG]

So toady my partner has thrown in the towel... I have no one else... She is my everything and I hope you understand what I mean by she is my home and my lighthouse to guide me home!! I have been fighting hard as I have had something to fight for... Now I have nothing! I know it is an irrational thought and I would not say I am suicidal... But I feel like I am just at the end... I have no family... I lost my best mate... I guess this is a last hurrah to someone else who might understand... Noone else seems to get me at all!

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

 

[MrG]

Thank you. No idea what I am doing right now... I am so lost!

 

[Ronin]

You still have you.

I know that world crushing loneliness.
But you still have you. Please stay for that you, he deserves it.

 

[MrG]

I have lost my one reason to continue... What else is there? I am not worth anything to anyone including myself! I just don't seem to function in this environment... I just don't seem to belong here...

 

[Ronin]

Change the environment, mate. Don't die.

There's plenty of things, none of which would make sense right now, even if they happened to be your things, so wait?
Grief is a really shit weather, it moves through, but please, hang on in all the meantime.

 

[caligirl03]

You need consistent support from a person/people who are either professional and/or can relate. Once you have a better handle on yourself, you will have something to offer your partner and maybe she will take you back. I speak only from my personal experience with my man after I threw in the towel on him...more than once! Good luck. You are NOT alone.

 

[X360pt]

Hang in there dude! Seek help, don't fight on your own.

 

[MrG]

Not found anyone to talk to... The one person other than my partner who I would have turned to I lost a few years ago.... My brother in arms.

 

[Ronin]

Could you write it all out, for now?

Or say it aloud anyway, even if there's no conversation partner, for now?

Just because the person & people aren't there now, doesn't mean there won't be.

 

[X360pt]

Not found anyone to talk to... The one person other than my partner who I would have turned to I lost a few...

Write your negative thoughts/emotions out mate… this is what I've been doing for the past 8 weeks now and it helps.

Have a talk on the forum chat.

Take it easy dude

 

[Bloomy]

Start to create a life that means something to you. Even if you are alone. Make your self go out of the comfort zone to find hobbies that engage you. Step by step second by second.

I started with interest of outdoors adventures. On hike or bike and such. Bringing my camera - my precious with me. This atleast is a hobbie that takes up a lot of time and thats good in addition to that it calms me down and give sense of meaning.