Never_falter2
Diamond Member
LOL, that word sounds kinky.
Christmas and New Year's Eve are over and where I live there soon will be another thing to celebrate: carnival. Unlike Christmas and New Year's Eve that usually calls for really big gatherings of people you do know but only know by sight.
Then they ask you what you did in the last year, how your husband career has advanced and so on. The things they did where always extraordinary and special, their husbands careers advancing fast and me???
Because of my husbands PTSD and because of other factors not much happened and his career is just the same as it was a year ago.
"So, which exiting things did you do last year never falter? What has happened?", "Well, I wen't to a masked ball and met you and you asked me what I did during the last year".
I am into sports, when I have the time. My guy is actually one who likes bungee jumping and he likes sport, so it's not like he is doing nothing all the time, but he still isn't into get togethers and he isn't into balls and stuff like this though he shows up when it is important. So I just cannot boast how we went the x place and met X and went the y place and met y.
Even worse: just nothing happened in my husbands career.
So I just fake excitement and talk about some fairly unimportant stuff that happened to us as if it was the best thing that has ever happened to me... all while I feel like a social outcast.
Very few people know my husband has PTSD.
It is a bit like wearing a mask all of the time, not only the carnival mask. If I had the choice I would openly discuss PTSD but my husband does not want me to.
Christmas and New Year's Eve are over and where I live there soon will be another thing to celebrate: carnival. Unlike Christmas and New Year's Eve that usually calls for really big gatherings of people you do know but only know by sight.
Then they ask you what you did in the last year, how your husband career has advanced and so on. The things they did where always extraordinary and special, their husbands careers advancing fast and me???
Because of my husbands PTSD and because of other factors not much happened and his career is just the same as it was a year ago.
"So, which exiting things did you do last year never falter? What has happened?", "Well, I wen't to a masked ball and met you and you asked me what I did during the last year".
I am into sports, when I have the time. My guy is actually one who likes bungee jumping and he likes sport, so it's not like he is doing nothing all the time, but he still isn't into get togethers and he isn't into balls and stuff like this though he shows up when it is important. So I just cannot boast how we went the x place and met X and went the y place and met y.
Even worse: just nothing happened in my husbands career.
So I just fake excitement and talk about some fairly unimportant stuff that happened to us as if it was the best thing that has ever happened to me... all while I feel like a social outcast.
Very few people know my husband has PTSD.
It is a bit like wearing a mask all of the time, not only the carnival mask. If I had the choice I would openly discuss PTSD but my husband does not want me to.
