Tired

[anthony]

Maro, unfortunately this is going to be painful to talk about, but if you want to get through it, please persist with the process, as avoidance hasn't obviously helped you any.

This is whats obviously tearing you apart, being what you feel and what is fact / realism of a situation.

Why did your son remain where he was, when you moved to be near your sister for support?

 

[Froggie]

I can't do this anymore tonite. Thank you so much and I will come back to this board again. It is late and if I think too much of this I will be up all nite.

Welcome to the forum Maro, that is a very good statement and it shows that you have a good survival system in you. What you went through is not easy, and people who commit suicide do it in all sort of circumstances. But as a mom myself, I can understand all this guilt responsablity so even if I come out with all sort of logical arguments, it's what you feel for the moment. Do you have a therapist ? My story is different from yours, but I do understand the guilt part, it took therapy to help me deal with that and have another perception of what caused my PTSD.

If you need to talk, just let me know ... linking arms with you (((Hugs)))

Froggie