Relationship To Ask Or Not

[MorningDove]

Looking forward to seeing him tonight...

 

[MorningDove]

The last many he has been so cute and smiley and hugs abound-feels so good. This came after a week of him being agitated about something and I sent him an email letting him know I was here if he needed to chat. I also had a panic attack one night and never told him directly but I think he probably noticed our other friends helping me get through it. The next night another friend had one and we walked past him as I took her out for some fresh air and to walk it off. Yes-we are a room full of it-all just taking turns.

 

[MorningDove]

Sometimes I feel like such a wrecking ball and others so so sweet. He never shuts me off, just lets me know the boundaries. Needing a break to start working on some other goals and stop thinking about it all so much. It will be hard not to see him so much but gotta have some space for a while to work on myself. Can I turn away for a moment without looking over my shoulder all the time? Will it break whatever bond we have? Can't worry about that now-need to look at the bigger picture in life. Feeling growing pains.

 

[nursenurse]

You have to do what is best for you. Ask yourself what you need for your big picture, because if you harbour any misgivings and resentments, they will only grow. Can you do this for the rest of your life? The world is full of sweet people, and in the end, PTSD or not, he may not be the right one for you. Do not stay just because you want to show him you can. Stay because this is the right relationship for you, because what you have now may be what your whole future entails. And there is no shame ever in pulling out because the relationship is not right for you. I am glad that you are taking time for yourself.

 

[MorningDove]

The world is full of sweet people, and in the end, PTSD or not, he may not be the right one for you. Do not stay just because you want to show him you can.

It is honestly not just him and I do not resent him in any way. I need a break from that part of our social scene in general. I am not so good for long stretches in group dynamics. I get feeling bogged down by the "politics" which can make me anxious and sometimes even have panic attacks. Suffered long term bullying from kindergarten through graduation in high school and even though I am a part of a really amazing and loving community, it still gets to be much for me at times.