Totally freaked out

[Fayne Jane]

I have made it thru EMDR and reprocessing my internal messages about myself not deserving what happened to me. My T told me one or 2 more sessions and we will be done. I freaked but didn't let her know. I have spent 2.5 months going thru this and now she seems to think I can move on. My memory no longer has control of me, I have been healed in a sense. But her telling me our sessions were coming to an end totally freaked me out. Like what am I suppose to do now? I know I am thru the worst of it and we will meet for one or two more sessions to work on internalizing positive messages. But then what?? I am just kicked to the curb? I am not ready for that. Anyone else experienced this? I know I have made great progress but it doesn't feel like I am done, anxiety over ending my therapeutic realtionship. Kind of feel like I am hanging on the edge of who am I, what am I suppose to do now??/

 

[Crow]

Wow. Two and a half months? It's taken me twelve years with a highly trained trauma specialist to get to an end point and that is in about 18 months. Can you find a regular talk trauma therapist? There's so much more to recovery than processing memories. That was the easy part for me. Learning to build relationships has been the hardest.

So sorry this is happening to you.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

I imagine it is scary. Maybe you are due for a new type of therapy or need a purpose to focus on like leading a support group. I don't know. It was abrupt when my therapist left me. Now I will start with an emdr therapist in a few weeks. I feel lost right now. But at some point we will have to trust that we are okay navigating this world without therapy. Scary indeed.

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

Can you move on to another kind of trauma therapist?