Totally Lost My Ability To Look After Myself

[NatBird]

Well done you :happy:
And we'll done for recognising this...

And the need for this...

:tup:

Yup :roll...

@digger I totally relate to the debate around giving to myself. I'm having this with spending on the flat to make it a home. Thanks again for the support.

 

[NatBird]

Mine do as well. My chronic pain is worse, I sometimes get sick etc. I just wanted to make...

@lostforgottensoul

Thank you, particularly the heads up on the medical stuff. I do have an auto immune issue that can wipe me out especially when stressed.

It was great you mentioned the light. I don't have curtains but you've reminded me of the last time I cleaned my windows and how different the world seemed after that!

Are you in a better place with it all yourself?

 

[NatBird]

A very timely post for me as I have to move. Place is being demolished. Moving is a huge trigger f...

@Changeling wishing you a balance of enough energy and acceptence for the move.

I'm grateful you shared about the rotting food, the cycle of wanting to cook and then the kitchen being too overwhelming to do so.
Because of medical stuff I don't eat fast food etc so it means I just don't eat. It's like I block my self care. Or I get sick from all the spores in the atmosphere. I know eeeew but as we are on topic!

I always find it telling that the kitchen - the place of nourishment - is the room I struggle with the most.

Let us know how the move is going. I'm happy to support/cheer you on.

 

[NatBird]

I'm not liking your post because I like that it is that way for you, just acknowledging. That you s...

@ sun seeker

"I'm not liking your post because I like that it is that way for you, just acknowledging." Please can you explain what you meant by this?

"is it something about it being you that you would have to care for that makes it hard, or is it just not having the energy?"

I don't have the energy. Even my cat is suffering:(

 

[NatBird]

I'm not liking your post because I like that it is that way for you, just acknowledging. That you s...

@sun seeker

"I'm not liking your post because I like that it is that way for you, just acknowledging." Please can you explain what you meant by this?

"is it something about it being you that you would have to care for that makes it hard, or is it just not having the energy?"

I don't have the energy. Even my cat is suffering:(

 

[NatBird]

This year, I've had a level of self-neglect that is the worst I've ever been - I spent a day in hosp...

@BlueOrange

Sorry to hear about your hospitalization. That sounded like a very rough space.
I'm sensing you are doing much better now..?

Thank you so much for sharing the link between stuff being processed and the neglect. I have just been realising that my place as it is recreates part of the hell I lived with my mother. It also keep the stuff coming up from surfacing as a part of me will not release because it does not feel safe enough. This is why the home thing now feels so urgent. I feel ready to release!

I also feel a kind of birth happening - birthing images are appearing consistently in my work. Thanks for sharing and affirming:)

 

[NatBird]

Thanks everyone. Your experience and thoughts are helping me a lot:)

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Are you in a better place with it all yourself?

Not particulally but i'll get there.

 

[NatBird]

Not particulally but i'll get there.

@lostforgottensoul aw sorry. This is a rough road at times or a lot of the time. I'm hoping you have support? and wishing you to find a spot of ease within where you're at.

 

[NatBird]

And

Not particulally but i'll get there.

And yes...you will get there:)

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I'm hoping you have support?

I do on here. ;)

 

[Sandstone]

Cooking isn't necessary. On a bad day I might eat a bit of ham, then later a bit of bread and later a tomato. That is the same as a ham and tomato sandwich, but why complicate things by adding in plates, chopping boards, knives, concentration and planning?