Trauma Diaries

[purdyamos]

I might give it a go, but I'm worried about starting something that might turn out to be dangerous, as you said Anthiony, once you start you have to go through it, and I don't have anybody at all to help me when I crack up. Are we supposed to be in therapy too if we do this?

 

[anthony]

Being in therapy is good, yes. A therapist can do this with you if your willing to heal. Its not really about that the person will do much except provide some feedback, it is more about you exposing your trauma, forcing yourself to remember parts that are lost, rereading what you write until you are no longer scared off it, then you will certainly improve yourself enough to atleast have the majority of your trauma subside, so you can get on with tackling all the smaller issues of PTSD. Yes, you will fall if especially if you haven't ever discussed all of your trauma before.

 

[pclaessen]

I am currently participating in the private trauma diary forum. My experiece so far... The forum may be better for me then therapy was. I totally couldn't handle therapy. the questions were too fast and my brain would shut down to such a point that I couldn't even remember what we had talked about. I couldn't cry in front of the therapist. I need to do that in private. I would get so emotional in sessions that I couldn't talk and when I did it came out more like I was about 6....

I really needed to be able to think about the questions. I felt uncomfortable having to answer because I was trying to control my emotions. In the privacy of this forum I can write it down, have time to think, read and re-read what I have written and what others have written, until I understand what I am feeling. I guess therapy would be better if I could have taped the sessions.

If what I am writing is too difficult or making me space out at work like I did today, I know I need a break. It's hard, but it's something you can do in baby steps. It's better then doing nothing at all and letting ptsd control me. I am so tired of not enjoying life..........

Patty

 

[piglet]

Sounds like you are making excellent progress Patty. Well done you! I hope you are being good to yourself when you take your breaks.

I have been thinking about the trauma diaries thing, but currently I'm still too scared of it! Maybe when my work stuff calms down I'll feel more able to deal with the harder stuff. We'll see.

Take care.

 

[cookie]

i am trying to do this diaries thing, but i had to stop before i could read it. i will read it, though. i think this might not be a good thing for me, at least not right before bed time again. i look like a junkie this morning. and i am still shaking, is this normal?

 

[anthony]

Very normal cookie... you have suffered, and we will get through this in your diary. You are now actively going to kick goals, and hopefully stop fearing some of your past.... you deserve better. Everyone with PTSD deserves better.

Thanks patty... you are doing great also.

 

[sigh]

Thanks Anthony,
It's nice to have a moderator who has ptsd (I've been places where thats not the case) and who is sensitive to the needs of the members.

I would like to be able to switch between 1 and 4. sometimes, I feel so bitter, I just want to hang out my dirty laundry. Sometimes I feel so humiliated that I say it to bury it.

 

[Mommy to 2]

I'm new here, but think what you're proposing would be very beneficial to many here. Often whatever strength I'm feeling today can be lost and overpowered by a panic attack or anxiety tomorrow. It'd be a forum I'd use.

~Mommy to 2

 

[Mina]

Trauma Diaries has since become its own subforum here:
[DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/forum32.html[/DLMURL]

If you follow that link and scroll down to the bottom, there is a lot of great information on how to use a diary to best advantage.