Tried To Find My Dad On Facebook.

[Gs172003]

The more I think about it the more I think I wonder if it wouldn't help me see who he is, see who I am, and help me remember some things and if he has changed any.

 

[EmmaOwl]

I wonder if it wouldn't help me see who he is, see who I am, and help me

I guess I proceed extra-cautiously on this one, because my relationship with the person who most messed me up has been up and down. He and I reached a semi-resolution - he was fairly young and screwed up when everything happened - and so in my late teens, I confirmed everything with him, and for a couple of years, he was very kind and helpful to me. He answered any questions I might have (because of blurry memories on my part) or be there if I had a nightmare or a panic reaction...but then a couple of years after he got married, he essentially disappeared on me.

So, that is one reason I went back into full-blown PTSD mode, losing him as a support. That's why I advise caution. I hesitate to let myself become that vulnerable again, expecting him to help me, when he has clearly moved on. Hard as that is for me to admit.

But that's why I suggest that you - and anyone who wants to revisit the past - try to be careful, and try not to let yourself be too vulnerable.

Either way, you're in my thoughts, missy.

 

[Gs172003]

He hasn't ever really been in my life since I was little. So him not being there is nothing new. I am kinda afraid of what could come up though.