Triggered...again

[Bookoffee]

I over think everything. Today I had to figure out why I had to start an online Journal without talking with my therapist first. The bullying I saw on Facebook with my niece’s wedding hit something in me. It was too much for me to handle, it brought me back to when my mother and brother were bullying me. I felt alone and scared.


Since then I have been feeling emotions that I have shut off for over two decades. I am throwing up my pain, anger, resentment. Is this the way I do it? What is the healthiest way for my brain?

I need to get my anxiety under control. I have not been out since Friday. I want to go to the beach and run

 

[ghotiff]

If exercise helps you, can you try some exercise within your home?

Just a suggestion that I hope is helpful.

 

[Deleted member 27845]

I suffer severe PTSD coupled with acute social and generalized anxiety. There have been times where weeks, even months, have passed where I have not ventured outside. Being somewhat of a nature nut myself I can greatly sympathize with you, Bookoffee. The only advice I can offer you is muster up every ounce of energy you have and force yourself. I know... 'much' easier said then done. It helped me immensely having a dog by my side in order to do this. Do you have one?

 

[Chava]

In my somatic therapy I have actually done the gagging motion (without barfing, though my therapist joked that would be okay if I needed too :hungover:). I can relate to the sick feelings and everything feeling jumbled and just wanting to get it out. Gag, spit, stomp, whatever might feel helpful for that energy. Can you set a tiny goal of going to the beach and running for like 5 minutes, and if it goes okay, run 10? Or, as mentioned, find a way to exercise in the house? I can relate to not wanting to go out, but I also feel a crash of problems when I don't (my joints get screwed up and prevent my regular walks...then the moods seem to get more extreme). I hope tomorrow is a little better for you...hang in there.:hug:

 

[anthony]

Talk about it... "I feel.... because...."

 

[UpTillDawn]

Any chance you could take it slow? If you can manage to make it to the beach, set a goal for 5 minutes, or 10 minutes. If you can't manage that, perhaps you could just spend even 5 or 10 minutes running on a nearby street? Or, if you can't manage to get out at all, perhaps you could find exercise to do in the house?

Alternatively, perhaps something else could help you get your energy up? Be it cleaning, punching something, shadow boxing, making something, screaming, etc.