Littlebirdy44
Bronze Member
Last night my best friend had another schizophrenic episode. It's been almost three years since the last one but this was definitely the worst its ever been. She lives in my neighborhood and doesn't have much of a support system other than me and a few other friends. I did everything i could but it was absolutely terrifying i felt so helpless. I truly don't know how i was able to calm her down while keeping myself calm while panicking like i was. God definitely had my back. The worst part is the voices she claimed she was hearing were me and my friends.. she thought we had been stalking her the last few days and talking horribly about her outside her window. so she considered us actual enemies while we were trying to calm her down. I can't even imagine what "my voice" was saying to her :( i love her so much, that breaks my heart. Luckily her father got her to the hospital but honestly I lost it after things calmed down when they left. I couldn't breathe and on top of that the nightmare from last night threw me into a panic and i ended up self harming to gain control over myself yet again :( . I'm calm now but i'm still so shaken and worried for her. This world truly is cruel sometimes.
