They say that acknowledging that you have a problem is the first step in healing.
And we know that PTSD can never really be healed, just lived with like asthma, or diabetes.
Well, I only just truly came to the realisation today during a session with my therapist, that PTSD is going to be with me for the rest of my life.
Since being diagnosed in 2007, I talked about it and even told my family and other people about it, but never really (I don't think) took it in, that it was permanent.
Yes, the nightmares and flashbacks do diminish and not become so severe after therapy (unless triggered), and so does the hypervigelence. However, recently I have had symptoms of high stress, anger, memory loss, and disassociation to name a few, but put it down to giving up smoking. Yes, this can cause some of these symptoms, but not so prolonged and so intense.
So, after speaking to my psychiatrist and therapist (psychologist), they just said it was the nature of the beast. You see, at present, everything is going a hundred miles an hour and I am so frustrated with myself. I had led myself into such a false sense of security that I was not ready for and did not recognise the symptoms when they arrived. Margaret my girlfriend did, and so did my son, but what are they to do?? Tell me and have me go off??
So, now they have me back on my mood suppressants and have upped my dose of anti-depressants.
Now I have decided not to drop them back or play with my medication unless the therapist agrees.
Just another vent.
Jimmy
And we know that PTSD can never really be healed, just lived with like asthma, or diabetes.
Well, I only just truly came to the realisation today during a session with my therapist, that PTSD is going to be with me for the rest of my life.
Since being diagnosed in 2007, I talked about it and even told my family and other people about it, but never really (I don't think) took it in, that it was permanent.
Yes, the nightmares and flashbacks do diminish and not become so severe after therapy (unless triggered), and so does the hypervigelence. However, recently I have had symptoms of high stress, anger, memory loss, and disassociation to name a few, but put it down to giving up smoking. Yes, this can cause some of these symptoms, but not so prolonged and so intense.
So, after speaking to my psychiatrist and therapist (psychologist), they just said it was the nature of the beast. You see, at present, everything is going a hundred miles an hour and I am so frustrated with myself. I had led myself into such a false sense of security that I was not ready for and did not recognise the symptoms when they arrived. Margaret my girlfriend did, and so did my son, but what are they to do?? Tell me and have me go off??
So, now they have me back on my mood suppressants and have upped my dose of anti-depressants.
Now I have decided not to drop them back or play with my medication unless the therapist agrees.
Just another vent.
Jimmy
